My heart really aches

i feel terribly like shit when im with you sometimes.
i felt worthless
im simply nothing compared to others to you.
you dont show me how important can i be in your life.
i just someone who accompanies you to the gym and spending your money, theres completely nothing good i can do.
i do no influence in your life at all.
im a noob dealing with relationship
all i know is to sacrifice everything inorder to make you happy and make things go smoothly.
end up, i get almost ZERO graditude from you.
you use your emotions to judge things,
but you just completely ignorant abt how many million stuffs i did for you.
without fail, i will accompany you to eat dinner whenever your mom didnt cook, however late it is.
why?
coz i cant bear to see you eating dinner alone.
and i cant understanmd why you dont wanna buy me food whenever i asked u to.
too lazy? too ex? or what?
its not im petty or whatever, this just show do you even bother abt me or your convenience?
i know our relationship will not last.
but i just wanna be with you every minute.
i cant bear to say goodbye to you everynight.
i cant bear to not respond to you whenever we quarrel.
one day you might forget everything abt me
its alright.
from what i see,
youve got alot of friends around for you.
and i know it doesnt really matter if im with you or not.
you once said you can live without me,
thinkin through, perhaps youre right.

SHIT PLUS SHIT LAH
firstly, my contact lens slit apart
i cant use it.
and its for a month.
i used it for one day only.
secondly, my nails was chipped off, and it bleeded.
fuckin pain
thirdly, my body physique is horrible plus terrible
i wanna have larger boobs(every girl wans), firmer ass, smaller thighs, nice abs, broader shoulders.
but now, from lookin at the mirror,
i have boobs, but small.
i have ass, but not firm enough.
i dont have good legs
i have flat tummy, but only slight abs visible
i have a small undefined shoulder.
and i want a sharper nose.
perhaps im too young to yearn for all, but il workout in gym
either by months or years,
that day will soon arrive
to all my friends out there, your dream of having a perfect body will come true,
IF YOU ARE DETERMINED IN YOUR DIET AND ECERISE
so jiayou!!!!

helooooo
ate cafe cartel and yakun kaya
pictures ill be postin
ytd.
hectic day.
when to bugis for gym
then head to funan
then to ps
then to queensay
then home.
tired sia.
bye lazy to blog

CLASS CHALET PICS.
4e6 rules

funfunfun!!
below are pictures of me,meiyi,glenn,yonghwee
peace.

hey
sup people.
im lazy to blog recently.
so yea. sorry
WEDNESDAY
went to funan IT mall to get somethings for my psp slim.
cool.
i won it at ngee ann poly. haha
after that went to suntec to eat muthu curry.
we have been wanting to eat since long!
so we fulfilled our wishes!