Dont you just love my sexy red heels? HAH!

I guess time can really bring either 2 people closer or further away..
I dont yearn for him as much as i do in the past..
I dont get angry for nothing when he doesnt text me anymore..
I dont wait by for his phone calls anymore..
Slowly, i'm replacing him with other things in life..
because i guess there's no more Love between us now..
i guess your words really etched into my mind..

saying that we could never be tgt again..

i took your words and moved on..

well

i dont know if this is a good thing for us..

because you never really ever opened up your heart when youre with me..

you never speak to me about how you really want us to be..

or perhaps you did..

just i didnt take it seriously..

but in the very end, you've won..

im backing out of your life,

i dont wanna know anything about your life anymore..

it haunts me somehow..

starting anew, seeing new people is what i guess i need to do now..

went for driving today..

ordered mac and mac took damn long:(

cabbed down to bbcdc.

and i cant believe im driving at night!

LOL so weird!

very super nervous during driving just now..

after driving D wanted to meet me for dinner, but i cancelled..

didnt wanna see anyone recently... too much things up in my head..

didnt reply calls and msges either..

just felt so trapped and lonely out of the sudden..

there's so much things i wish i could whine and complain about to my loved one..

it's like a kind of loneliness that not even your good close friends can give..

whereas only someone you love, you care can make you feel genuinely happy, genuinely occupied.

can anyone please advise me on how should i deal with my r/s stuffs?

i dont wanna get innocent people involved with my life:(

You never fail to make me feel inferior.
& this sucks.
mom left this morning leaving me with cash.
Argg, dont know if it's enough for a month.
THIS IS CRAZY.
Leaving me for a month?!
OMGGG.
i need to do grocery shopping sooon..
stock up food at home.
incase i go hungry and i dont wanna MAC everyday!
it's already 1 week into holidays and alot of things happened.
well, he said he doesnt want me back, and i accepted it.
if friends can be happier, i'm okay.
maybe you shouldnt even be my bf at all..
well, i'm opening up to love again..Atleast..
i dont wanna cry for you forever..
let it go, move on..
let me plan what should i do for this month..
i guess i will just make full use of it and organise a steamboat at home?
well Dont know? guess i will invite those ppl im close with bah.
Sigh
Tonight...will be a lonely night:(
in fact, it has been always like this.
argh. bye