I'm bored like fuck.

i feel so heavy nowadays.

not physically, but mentally.

i need a break seriously.

screw life please.

i want to swim in a vast ocean.

drown my sorrows away

i want to cry.

i want to scream.

why do all guys treat me like this.

im wondering what am i to them.

aiya.

dont know luh.

fuck '

and also.

im BROKE.

WHAT THE FUCK.

ARG.

im off for work.
im broke.
my wallet is empty.
not even coins in there.
someone i pleaded didnt lend me some.
wtf.
i guess i cant get to eat today.
maybe someone is meeting me after work. (=
and yea.
between me and you, its over.
i wont cry or bullshit or crap now.
let me or US be independent.
ive thought thrg.
nothing lasts, except for great friendships yeah?
i would still like to remain friends with you.
though we wont be close as before,
being with you is always a blessing for me.

Lol. i realised its 11.04 now.
and im working at 12.
fuck.

Yep. hehee.

I've got my name on that fucking screen.

im damn proud of myself.

I didnt really put in 100% effort though.

esp. for SS + GEO.

ahahah.

i got a B3 for it.

like WTF.

and yea.

my maths was really disapointing.

even mdm tsuei also claimed.

she said, shinyi ah, i expected better grades for your math.

sobs.

E math - A2

A math - A2

WHHY??!?

not that im ACTION or what, but i really can achieve A1.

algin told me to be satisfied with my results,

becoz ive already got 4As.

but so what?

there're still ppl who got 6As.

anw, my lousy result. ARG

Also, expected to get all As for my three sciences

sad enough, DIDNT.

FUCK LUH.

only get A for biology.

chem and physics got B3.

nvm.

the release of results had left me hanging no where.

there;s joy and disappointment.

wanted to cry out, but i didnt.

wanted to jump ard, but i didnt.

in the end, i left the school alone.

coz i feel that there's nothin much for me to celebrate abt- didnt met my aims.

alot ppl congratulated me.

i was thankful.

but deep inside, i need encouragement instead of being congratulated.

maybe i really have too high expectations of myself and my studies.

Today

just submitted my applications for JC/poly.

my choices include:

Jurong JC

Catholic JC.

ahahha. like impossible to get in sia.

anw.

CONGRATS TO PPL OUT THERE FOR GETTING THEIR DESIRED SCORE!!