Its sunday today. Damn bored. Dont feel like studying. ARG. yesterday went orchard with darl darl. We had a fierce arguement man. I was damn pissed and said we're over. I threw my ring into his plastic bag then walk off. I went to brought brownies. and when i went back to the place, he was gone. I stood there in a daze. He called me and scolded me. i knew i was in wrong , but i just cant help it but to be furious. I love him, but sometimes it turn to hatred. Then he said, since you said we're over then wad's the point of him keeping my ring. then he threw it in the dustbin. i was stunned. and i started crying. I felt so emo that time. he said the ring represnts our love and he gave it to me on our half month anniversary, yet he threw it away thinking so naively. i dint thought thta he took my words so seriously. so he pulled me away and i hit him. then he took out my ring from his pocket. a smile instaneously apeared on my face. haha. sometimes i think love is such a interesting and wonderful thing that can make person go crazy over it.

Oh Shinyi, stop being so EMO. EMO FREAK.

just back from school. Its speech day today. I kind of screw up my dance steps. ahahahah. i forgot a step and went on with my other steps which i am supposed to be stationary there. EMBARRASED CAN. damn it. the stage was Fuckingsmall.
ANW, going out with algin soon. BYE(((((=

LOVE ME OR HATE ME

BOOO. no one can help me. NO ONE. i had to overcome my fear myself.

school ended fast today. had remedial till 2.30. and now i'm back home. during lesson crapped alot with qingqing and glenn. ahha. i know how qing is feeling now. she and i are on the same boat.just that she's much stronger than me. haha. i dont expect to have a exciting and fulfulling life. but he does. i dont see that we are any compatible. just feel like drifting away from reality. I NEED REST DUUDE.

AND TML IS SPEECH DAY. EWWWW. i'm not been collecting academic awards after since sec2. actually sec 3 was to collect top in level for science but that Benedict won me by 0.5 marks!!!ARG.its devastating. nvm. Its so fair.happy for nothing.

I HATE THIS YEAR! I YEARN FOR CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR. OF COURSE MY BIRTHDAY TOO. SWEET SIXTEEN!!

Today still sucked. It seems like everyday sucks. I hope for a better Tomorrow. and i'm having MT oral tml. i didnt even prepare. no one even wished me good luck. I'm a loser man. I'M SOSO EMO ALRIGHT.
BYE

I've been provoked many times today. mentally. fuck this. i mean actually is my problem ok. i shouldnt give a damn about this stuffs. man. all this are such minor stuffs lah. wtf, yet i can go crazy over it. ARGGGG. I'm becoming a different person already. This even made me hate_____ even more.
and i got a unreasonable call from him. WTF. i'm going to breakdown man. seriosuly, one more trigger, there i go.

I HAD TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF. NO ONE IS RELIABLE. AND DONT GIVE A DAMN TO WAD PPL SAY.

I hate being treated like a fool.
I hate myself for getting into deep shit.
I hate studying.
I hate nightlife.
I hate people who snubs.
I hate people who treat me like a spare tyre.
I hate lies.
I hate examinations.
I hate hyprocites.

Its like finally school's starting. I wanna quickly end school. I hate 2007. I suffered enough this year. However i've got him by my side. Though we had melancholy and miserable moments, i've gained so much lessons from it. To think back, i've grown up during the times i had with you. I never regretted spending my time with you. Sometimes you tell me that i am possessive, yes i agree. We even quarrelled over my possesiveness over you. I confiscated your freedom and privacy. There were times we broke now and nearly ended this relationship. I glad and thankful that we can last this long. I want to be with you.

I cant live if living is without you.

Darling. HEHE. I miss you fucking lot. i know we will seldom meet during this torturing of FOUR months=120 days=2880 hours=172800 minutes=10368000 seconds. HAIZ. but i will bear and eat all the sufferings and achieve the results we all want. Once after my last paper (13 nov) we'll ENJOY>33. I'm really waititng for this days to happen. Lets work our way togeether okay. (((=

Another day went past just so quickly.

I'm ageing.

Today, algin came to my house, slacked a while before heading orchard.

Took alot of pictures. Ate pasta. Watched Fantastic Four. Not bad ahha. Quite amusing also. and we crapped alot during the movies. saw gladys in cineleisure. i shouted lah. damn embarrased. she scare me. LOL.

Pictures ((:

Us!

In changing room.

Wad we ate.

i ate almost everything

OUR LOVE

I LOVE MY BF

HELLO PPL.
Long time didnt update. too lazy. ARG.
YAY!! Tomorrow going out with darl darl. He's excited with his new haircut and his sis camera. I think we are going to be cam-whoring. LOLS.

btw. i just realised my class is first to take MT O Levels Oral Examination. Yikkes!! OMFG. its on this coming thursday. like wtf. So......... SOON. Man. but i dont give a damn, just shocked. haha
BYE.
post pictures when i'm back, Tomorrow. ((=

Let me venge my anger and disappointment out man. this sucks man. Neither of us would wan to msg each other . and every time i msg him all he say is that he wants to do homework, shit, bathe,mother there not convienent. WTF. while studying still can atleast msg right, if dun wan nvm ut atleast after u done hw then give me a friendly call or simply TYPE AND SEND a msg. is that so difficult????? yet he say'you also never msg me.' AIYO. i'm starting not to rely on him anymore. now i know being independent is so much impt. i have my freedom and he has his, he can travel and do anything he wants, and i also can. so i guess i really have to take a step back and put my hands off his matters and let him has his own PRIVACY. I'M OUT OF IT.

so, i'm going out later, wanna buy lots of stuffs!! bye!
btw, sorry to _ _ _, i cant go watch movie with u ppl, other days alright?


AND. THIS IS MY BLOG. I SET MY RULES, I LIVE IT, I RULE IT. THANKYOU.
AND ALGIN, I STILL MISS YOU AS USUAL ((:

Feeling damn sick alright. esp my nose. flow non-stop. arg.
life's soso bored. just came just from sch, and realised that actually Os not that difficult if u understand it. mrs tan is right. dont need to be afraid of exams. dont need to panic. just use keywords and understand the qns will do. its easy to get distinition. (:

Just saw the news today. Jolin won the Best mandarin singer award and the Most popular female award. Not surprised tho. She won many many prizes since last time. But i dun think she should be the one getting it. There are much more better singers in Taiwan and China lor. Erm like, Elva siu,Angela, etc. dun really know much mandarin singers. I think the chances of winning of her is that she's young, sexy, daring, and her album are always new and refreshing, never fails to capture other's attention. I guess the rest had to bow down and defeat ba. AND YAH. AH MEI is also FANTANSTIC. just that she;s too OLD. LOL.

Hectic day today,
went to school for extra remedial, mrs tan taught us non stop. she's a good teacher. and she's not fierce at all. However i think she's very fragile person,despite her character. She's strict, demanding, and has a loud voice. but deep inside her, she told us that she has no aim in life now.how pitiful. seriouisly i do think that life is not all about achieving wad u ought to achieve. so wad if u have PHD? so wad if you are rich? so wad if u managed to marry a rich director's son? in the end, you just get you fame, satisfaction, and happiness. it wont last long man. haii. life's such a dilemma. No wonder, there are ppl out to be monk. being a monk is not easy, you have to let go and put aside everything include, your private life, your luxury, your fame, your loved ones. you have to treat everyone equally with care. Such a hard job.
Seriously i do think i often dun type out wad initially started off..haahha
okay back to today.
So i rushed back home to take my tuition stuffs and go abck sch. on the way, i met algin and passed him something he likes. NO NOT LIKE. IS LOVE>3. HE LOVE IT MORE THAN HE LOVES ME!!!! BOOO. ahaha. so reached school studied, studied like hell. then rushed to tuition. saw zoeyee on the way, talked quite alot. SO now. i'm at home watching campus superstar. all the contestants not good one lor. i think i'm far much better(= SERIOUS!

i admire you. says:
do u feel suffocted with my love
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
ya
i admire you. says:
do wish that i dun exist at all sometimes
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
sometime
i admire you. says:
have u regret being with me
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
no
i admire you. says:
why
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
duno
i admire you. says:
do u wish to get free of me now
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
sometime
i admire you. says:
i mean now
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
yes
i admire you. says:
do u think we should continue on
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
if u dun ask me out
i admire you. says:
do u stilll think i'm prefect
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
yes\
i admire you. says:
do you think we can last
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
yes
i admire you. says:
would u cry if we break
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
ya
i admire you. says:
but its like a good thing for u if we break, so why sad
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
then break
i admire you. says:
i dun mean that, i as
i admire you. says:
ask
http://www.crimson-tyler.blogspot.com/ says:
brkr la

sometimes it just damn diff to please him la. i didnt even asked him out for the five days we said. i allowed him to stay him home, yet he did nothing at home, just slackng. wtf. atleast if i'm at home, i have the discipline to do work and now i know i've done all my homework. he said he wants me to find another bf. and this is like so BULLSHIT. how much he love he said to be last time, was all BULLSHIT. is it my retribution or wad.? my life is so screwed now la. my dad just got pissed with me, and i had a hard time pleasing him back. i just quarreled with my F sis. Now wad? Him? ARGG. Screw this. sometimes i do think i dun even belong here.

such hurting words can come out from his mouth, wads more man? Find another boyfriend? haha, that easy huh? have to forget everything of you, have to stop contacting u, have to eat my shit to pass each day. FCUK. FCUK FUCK. i have on last thing to add on. NOTHING LAST FOREVER. i guess we will soon lose each other.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway.
went out with yixin today. yixin and i are pretty close i can say. during the last SYF performance rehearsal we seldom talk. but still we are that close. i really love her alot. she understands me well and gives me encouragment, she will scold me whetehr i'm wrong. hah. this type of freinds are getting rare. so i told her i got my belly pierced, she was like OMG. lol. she brought alot of stuffs today. rich kid. and i patheically jsut brought a spongebob for him. i really love to give my boyfriend surprises. i hope he does appreciate. and i know he will.(=. eeven though im mad with him, i do know that i loved him, just that sometimes my love towards him made him feel suffocated. ppl say i loved him too much that i rely heaviily on him . i do ADMIT. seriosuly, i dont know why, i dun see that i rely on my EXs that much tho. maybe to Me, his special and different. if he chooses to leave me or wadevr at a crucial stage or at a point of time, i would break down instantaneously. No doubt alright. perhaps after a LONG period of time, i will eventually slowly forget about him, and just let go. all i wan him to feel is a sense of freedom and happiness, which i know he lacks now.
OKAY. SO BACK TO MY JOUNEY WITH YIXIN TODAY.
erm, yay. so we ate Long John. gossiped ALOT. haha. but didnt badmouthed. lol. we talked about our lifes, studies, our further. hmm..so typical thinking of us indeed. havent someone thought of more interesting life? haii. humans are just so boring, monotonous. why not be a ghost instead? haha. So after eating walked and strolled around, thats when we decided to go home. erm when to meet algin. so somethings happen, dun wish to blog out. then went to clementi to eat. then headed funland. as usual, played. and we both managed to reach the highest stage(should be) haha. but our character wasnt strong enough, at the end died. AWW. sad ending tho.

i'll upload pictures soon. but not today. kinda lazy. BYE.
P.S: you are not forgetten.!

ALGIN, I'M SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU MANY.

SUP

Finally managed to pierce my belly. kind of pain tho.

i was like keep asking the 'Professional person'(he claimed he is) is it painful, and he said no.

So i believed him. so when he clipped onto my skin and pierce the sphere thrg, OUCHWWW. IT was DAMN PAIN.

ARG. cant slouch, cant touch my tummy,cant squart. Whatever.

it doesnt matter to me anyway. as long as someone likes it, its worth anything. (=

Pictures took recently. soon to be uploaded.

Nice piercing.((=

Darl took this. =))
We both look like reatrds!!

My family came back today. YAY. SOSOSOSOSOSSOSOSO damn happy,glad,relieved,delighted to see them. I miss them so much. I've been spending my previous nights at home alone. I've been getting creeps. Now, i know i need not fear. With them around, so much laughther and noise. HAHA. I miss my darl too. So i just came back from dinner at jurong. very full. BURP. Now soon help them unpack stuffs and receive my gifts. =)


Anway, saw someone who i simply hated so much onlined. Fuck her, ccbBitch

I LOVE THIS SUNSET THE MOST. HOPE TO SEE IT WITH YOU AGAIN.

I'M SOSOSOSOS HUNGRY!!

Fuck man. Its going to be 1pm soon, and i'm still here making changes to my blog. and i;ve not bathe. man. Tomorrow gonna meet algin for gym. ahah bet we will not wake up. anyway just hope. Bye.

BACK FROM FACIAL. HAHA. ITS FREE! anw. my life sucha dull. so stereotyped. hmm. damn craving for food. yum. nvm. i'll just wait til 7!! bye!

Yesterday went to M.O.S, with algin, gladys.It was damn croweded initially. so we quickly queued. lol. saw adriano. Not really that handsome real life. so that idiotic algin didnt brought his IC. how the hell he expected to enter. fuck. he blamed me. whatever la. so he asked his brother to bring down for him. and his brother was SOO slow that we had to re-queue all the way to the back, we were almost going to enter liao..then go all the way back. diao. nvm. my luck. Saw alot of familier faces, so gladys and I were like wah lau..so suay. and yea. the ppl there was hot and sexyya. yah. its supposed to be right. haha. soon algin's brother came and we were relieved.aahh. alteast not need to re-queue lah. okay..so queued and waited..grumbled alot..damn hot too. lol. luckily algin bro got friends inside so we cut the queue. lol. managed to enter safely. When we enter, wah the music was booming damn hardly. the music base was...haha. so adriano sang kiss goodbye..was kinda hot event..everyone was getting high. haha. the music chg to R & B suddenly. ppl rushed to the dance floor. algin feel sian. lol so gladys and i finally managed to ask convince him to dance. pretty stif la him lol. so i lead him.. slowly he moved with the beat. i think he was high. musics played were songs from usher, ciara, beyonce, 50 cent, sean paul, akon.blah. we drank coke. =_=. so we grinded each other and get ino the mood. swearted hell lot. and i found out smtthg..gladys dances damnfg well. haha. so the eveent end at 4. went to eat mac. and took cab hm.. was still high then. then algin fetch me hm. and told me smthg..............BYE. lol. need to eat and study liao..guilty conscious. =)

OKAY. THIS IS A NEW BLOG. I REMEMBER THE LAST TIME I'VE BLOG IS 3 YEARS BACK. LOL. ANYWAY, HAVE THE URGE TO BLOG, SO YEA. JUST BLOG THE FCK OUT.

So today, practically bored day, algin went back home ard 1 plus. then i'm alone at home again. wanted to go out, but i hve the fuckin tuition. so felt restless. so i practically slept for the whole day. ard 5 plus i woke up and changed. i wore ugly clothes. bah. my dressing style from bad to worse. so whatever lah. can cover okay le. lol. so begin to slow walk to mrt. i was full of thoughts. i felt that my life is so uninteresting. rushing here and there like madwomen, but wad do i get? Nothing. so wad if i mug and enter myself into the books? is O level my everything. man. such a irksome. hate this. arg. wan to get myself engaged into more fun and exciting stuffs. so ended tutiton,rushed home. watched Campus Superstar Two. saw guohao. dun think he was that good. but defintely the best among them. haha. JIAYOU, GUOHAO! HEHE. so like after awhile Shijuan,Jasmine & Jovi cum, they are damn noisy haha. but i like their accompany. they borrowed tank tops from me. haah. soon algin called, went to meet him for dinner @ macs. saw charis. pretty the same lol. after eating asked algin to chg light bulb for me. haha.
I asked him: "why are so willingly to help me chg light bulb?"
He replied :" cause its for our future good. next time our house de bulb spoill how? of course mus learn la.haha"
I said:" thats way i gave u this chance to allow u to improve."
LOL. he said we will get married.
because he had choosen me to be his partner for life. =)