Im waiting everyday so crucially bitter.
my nights are wasted.
tears, heartache.


You're gone.
You're walking away from me.
you dont ask me where am i anymore
you spend time with your friends i suppose,
doing stuffs that i dont know.
Yet, i'm letting you go, giving you your freedom.
removing myself from your life.
my existance (i know) will irritated you.


But i'll still see you for the last time to pass you everything you left behind.
Please take it away with you, i dont wanna have memories anymore.
lets all start anew.
i guess its better for both of us and everyone.
the silence you're giving me is making my heart bleed.
i cant live anymore.
i cry in tutorials.
because i see couples bonding strongly everywhere.
i really want you back.
but i know now everything had change.
but i cant accept this because i didnt do anything to hurt you intentionally.
why ccant you seee it?
yes im wrong, but i didnt played you.
you've got it all wrong.

i really cant bid these 2 years behind.
you promised to get me a ring.
it wont come true anymore
valentine would be meaningless.
i see valentine advertisments around.
roses, teddy bears, chocolates.
my buddy yh even asked me to chose a glass musical box for his gf.
i broke down infront of him.
he keep telling me he will forgive me.
but i know its all white lies.
he;s gone already.
and will never come back

i need to face this.
thats why i will meet you up.
thanks for the beautiful memories at Phuket, Bangkok, Msia, Genting and JB.
i love you, goodbye

this song really speaks to me
if ur reading this i wish i could told u how i felt i wish i could see u for even one last time
it breaks me every day im not near you

my heart is tearing

tears are flowing down profusely

i could barely see anything

you're gone forever from my side

i stopped knitting

coz my heart stops beating literally

i dont know why i keep blogging

i dont know why am i always so sad

when you can seem so happy

i wanna amend

i never meant to do those things to you

im sorry thhat ive hurt you

its something i must live with everyday

and all the pain i put you through

i wish that i could take it all away

and be the one who catches all your tears

i went sunset way again

i passed by so much places that brought back beautiful

memories

like those days we played firecrackers at the playground

those days where we gazed up to the sky

those days when u waited for me at my void deck

miss those kisses on the forehead

those firm assurring hugs

i went to the carpark where you always brought me home

i searched for you car hoping somehow you would be there

i reminisce everything

the handicap slot you always used to park your car

the vending machine you used to buy drinks from

the path you always walked me home

sadly im all alone now

i need you here so much

im screaming out for you, cant you hear?

i need those smiles from your face

they are all so beautifully perfect

i didnt want to hurt you

i didnt want to hurt you

someone please tell me what i shld do

every second is torturing

im listening to all sorts of songs to express my feelings

why cant i deserve another chance

why cant i deserve any thing more from you

i dont wanna force you..

i dont know how long can i tahan..

i dont know how long i can wait

i dont know how i will react if one day you fall for someone else better

i dont know what will i become one day if i stopped loving you

baby please give us one more chance

you miss me.
i miss you.
but you cant accept this fact.
what is the fucking fact?
you gave me this responsibility to find the truth.
the truth is i nvr ever liked him.
what and how am i supposed to do?
are we gonna let others the chance to fill in our emptyness?
are we gonna get replacements?
im thinking too hard.
sometimes, too much
i dont know what will happen next.
am i suppose to wait and see?


I had too much regrets in life.
I dont wanna have another one.

thanks for leaving me this song at your facebook.
Eamon - fuck it, dont want you back.

i have this only song for you.
Jay Chou - Ge Qian

i believe you will forget this r/s because it caused you so much hurt.
i believe i will become part of your past.
maybe youre right. we should really let go this time.
you made it clear.
goodbye

fuck you jia jun.
you know it best youre the person behind this shit.
NOW YOU MUST BE HAPPY THAT I BROKE UP WITH HIM.
I WONT MAKE IT HAPPEN.
FUCK YOU FUCK YOU.
YOU CAN NEVER MAKE ME SOUND LIKE THE CAUSE, BECAUSE YOU ARE THE FUCKING ONE.
YOURE GOOD AT GAINING SYPHASIZES FROM YOURE FUCKING FRIENDS.
YOU ARE THE ULTIMATE FUCKED UP

If you can look in my eyes and tell me you never loved me, then I'll walk away and never speak of it again.

A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out that it wasn't meant to be and you just have to let go..

We had said good-bye so many times before, but somehow our paths always managed to cross and we ended up in each other's arms. But now when we said this good-bye I have this feeling that I will never see you again. And this really hurts because this time it's simply so real.

Eiffel Tower , thanks for becoming my memory, not reality anymore.

I wish you would just open your eyes and see what you're losing. I mean it's 'me' the person you felt you could 'stay with forever.' of course I wonder what happened to us. What person wouldn't? I just wonder if you even think about making it better. We both screwed up a lot. I just want you to know that I'm sorry, and I hope I've made up for all the times I've ever hurt you. But you didn't even make an attempt on making it better. You just let me go

take care my dear,

maybe we were never meant to be.

what am i now?
what have i turned into?
have pride got into me?
something we worked so hard, yet we put it away so easily.
maybe its just we dont appreciate all that we both do.
im slowly fallin out.
how did we end up here this way?


i finally understood how my heart can really ache badly...

hey my blog. its all on private now. dont worry.
well, this will going to be my largest turning point in my life.
used to think i cant live without algin.
but acutally i can.
i think this time i wil make it too(:

当你改变不了一个人，你就应该改变自己。

my god my hair is quite nice right last time.

and i look so young.

hehe.

felt a sudden boost of confidence haha,

SO SICK OF LOVE.
REALLY WISH im a guy sometimes.
oh wells.
schoool tmrww.
2010 is gonna be a better year!
GOING ON 3RD YEAR SOOON!
JIA YOU MAX.
HAVING ATTACHMENTS LIKE SOOOOON TOOO.
OMG.