I guess i need to blog often.
now, life is different i cant rely.
and to prove to you,
i dont need love and pampers from any of you.
& i think you shld just forget me.


i dont wanna talk abt it anymore.
life sucks
results also sucks.
but i dont care
tonight gonna head boat quay and town.
monday night doesnt mean monday blues.
byeees

It's time for me to organise my life ( i know it isnt early lol).
there is plently of things for me to do.
i've wasted most of my days, aimlessly doing nothing except slacking as days goes.
now, i just wanna improve my life for the better.

-hit the gym real soon (tho i've said it millions of times)
-get a perfect tan
-get my ideal body Angelina.J
-go for braces adjustment sooon & get it out of me asap!
-get a fucking jobbb.
-get my IpodTouch.
-sell my clothes somewhere
-do housechores.
-go for a short trip. (man, i rreally need it)
-do reflecctions
-take note of myy health and diet. i really feel weaker n weaker nowadays
-swimm!
-get piercings sooon too
-BUY my baby bolster new clothes! coz my mom says if i dont buy, she's gonna throw! its the only thing on earth that i hug in bed with to make me fall asleep.
-learn how to coook more complicated dish.
-join back Oschoool. havent been dancing for ages
-learn how to be independent. impt

How can i ever make an impact to your life?
doing things behind my back wont just allow you to quit it, its just lying.
thosands, millions and zillions of sorry-s and apologises doesnt make any difference with you just continuing doing things i detest.
i mean i do try to put in my greatest effort to help you.
giving yourself excuses to quit isnt the way.
i believe you can, but you dont show me that.
how can i ever see it through in you?
how am i suppose to trust
in your eyes, im impact-less.
do you even fuckin know i feel so fucking useless.
do you wanna me to make things ugly before you even quit?
please, please, please.
i'm telling you now.
what u've done, you owe me,
in fact, you harm yourself.
from now on, im washing my hands off you
eitther you;re dead or alive, thats none of my business
GOODBYE

I'm sitting on the top of the building, not knowing what consequences i will have once i fall.
i cant see what's ahead of me, what's beneath me.
is it gonna be my last goodbye?

tooo stressed up with what i have now.
even you doubted my love.
i just cant find the right words to forgive myself.
maybe thats what only love can do.

Everyone(someppl) are liars,
hypocrites and
cheaters.
fuck off man! _I_

I took for granted all the time,that i thought will last somehow
I hear the laughter, i taste the tears
But i can't get near you now,
Can't you see it, you've get me going crazy.

Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you.
You still love me dont you?