I'm breaking down...

I held on to this feeling for so long...
I could take it no more.
I teared.
I missed you.
There are times i tried picking up the phone dialling your number,
but i didnt press the call button in the end.
I hesitated...
I couldnt sleep.
And whenever i sleep, nightmares will come haunting me.
I cried in my nightmares.
I woke up to find myself shivering.
What am i afraid of?
After all ive seen, all ive been thrg,
i feeel so tired of dealing with human beings.
i hate goodbyes..

Today, i sort of quarrelled with my good old friend.
I didnt meant it, things became sour..
I dont know how things bettween us will go in the future..
Sigh, whydid things turn out this way..
Bb, I need you here now,
but where are you :(

Rapunzel !

Love, is the person you think about during the sad songs

"i will kill the spiders. i will share my fries with you when you’ve finished all yours and are still hungry. i won’t ever pop my collar. i will never be rude to your tummy- when i hear it growl and gurgle, i promise to bend down and reply respectfully. i will eat the mushrooms when we order the supreme pizza. i will kiss the papercuts. and the door-slammed finger. and the counter-bumped hip. i’ll try my hardest not to get annoyed when you whisper questions and comments during movies. i will be the big spoon. i will let you win at wrestling. sometimes. other times i will not. i will go faster. harder. i will pull when you want. and tease you when you don’t. i will send you random txts and leave you silly gifts. not always. not on schedule. just whenever i want to. whenever i think you need one. or seven. i will check your tire pressure. and remind you to take your car in. i will hold your hand. i will love you. i will love you. i will love you."

I just gave up on the last item which reminds me of you.

I never thought I will hear myself saying this, but thank you.
Because if you hadn't of come along,
I never would have learned that my worst day could also have been my best.
Because when a heart breaks, it also opens
And once a heart opens any number of things can happen,
And some of them can be wonderful.
You know,
One of these days you'll realize how I was the one for you.
How you threw it all away.
And when that day comes, I'll smile and tell you the same things you once told me.
That you're my friend. And that's all I want us to be.
And maybe, if you're lucky,
You'll open your eyes, and see how those words can never be comforting.
And you'll never say them again.

Whatever you've said over the phone tonight,
It's all recorded in my heart.
I;ve become a burden a extra in your life.
You dont have to tell me,
I will walk away myself,
Im sure one day
Feelings for you will go,
Just like how i feel towards my previous ex.
I made the choice to finally go because,
I can't stand this pain.
It's time for my last tear to fall and me to smile again.
You know, if you push someone away too much, they might just leave
Remember, I didn't leave, you pushed me away.
You'll know it's too late.
Anw, I ddont want anything back
Even if you dont wanna return back my money it's alright.
Our love doesnt even worth 200.
算了，你走吧，我也走。
I will let time heal my wounds
I guess by next year, I'm all anew.
I will try hard to forget people that doesnt appreciate me
and accept people what truly loves me.
I will burn all our memories, love letters, anything that you gave me.
because it all doesnt matters anymore.
One day when you decide to turn back,
I wont be there anymore.

i hadn't been expecting.

Things arent going too well, so far. But. had great catch up sessions with peeps. Oh well.
It's Nov now. Dec next month. Time really really flies. Gawd. It seemed i just turned 18 yesterday and now i'm 19 soon. Really hope fer the better next year.

Ciaos. WAN.

Love my weekend!

Some people just like to gossip and spout nonsense to my mom. telling her things I do outside. making her worried.

Anyway on the brighter side, I hope to visit MBS sooon. Everyone is telling me how awesome it is to be there. Sigh. And I hope this week goes well for me....
cause it's HALLOWEEN!
Every year without fail I'll dress myself up. lol
Year 07 - Latex Cat costume
Year 08- Black Devil
Year 09- Jap School Girl Costume
Year 10- ????????

SUCK ON IT, BITCH

The sooner you realize things will never be the same again, the sooner you can move on.

A man and women who are both feeling blue, shouldn't we let our hair down and have a good time together?

Dont miss me when im gone.

I played along with the bullshit lies,
But obviously I was affected,
What kind of boyfriend wouldn't notice that.
You're the type of guy who doesn't see what he has until she leaves.
Cuz without me you know you're lost..
Minus you, Im better off.
Soon you will know.

We got along until you did that,
Now all I want is my stuff back,
Do you get that?
Let me repeat.
I want my stuff back.
You can send it to me,
Just drop it off in my mailbox.
I wont be home.

Now that i see things clear,
No matter what you say,
I won't return
I'm stronger now
I will find my way out of you.
Don't waste your tears on me,
Just save them for someone in need.
It's alright, It's okay,
I'm so much better without you!

CB RED and DRUNK.