Happy for wendy after meeting up with her recently...
She managed to find someone who loves her..
despite of her painful and torturous past, she picked up herself and moved on..
ive seen those tears, heartaches.
those lonely nights where she will call me and cry..
seen her grown up through this process,
I'm really really really happy for her.
I understand how exactly this feels during the breakup period..
So, wendy JIA YOU!
Let him love you care for you, you will be happy!
Loves xoxo
Sunday, February 28
From past weeks, i saw something..
you're not sure if you want me, but at the same time you don’t want anyone else to have me.
you know what?
you're right, no matter how hard i try to rekindle this love, i can't.
i can't seem to communicate with you either.
and i know meanwhile holding on me, you're trying to find some other girls out there.
it's understandable.
but its okay.
im more than willing be your spare or i'll be someone to let you fill in when you're lonely until you find someone else who fits to be your partner than me.
even if you leave me for another women in the end while holding on to me giving me hope that we could be together, i will never blame you.. Because ive made this choice to take care of you as long as i can and i promised myself to never stop loving you..
you're not sure if you want me, but at the same time you don’t want anyone else to have me.
you know what?
you're right, no matter how hard i try to rekindle this love, i can't.
i can't seem to communicate with you either.
and i know meanwhile holding on me, you're trying to find some other girls out there.
it's understandable.
but its okay.
im more than willing be your spare or i'll be someone to let you fill in when you're lonely until you find someone else who fits to be your partner than me.
even if you leave me for another women in the end while holding on to me giving me hope that we could be together, i will never blame you.. Because ive made this choice to take care of you as long as i can and i promised myself to never stop loving you..
Thursday, February 25
Honestly speaking, you dont have to ask me if ive given up or not.
you should be asking yourself.
and you're asking me
because you dont even have an answer to yourself.
You find and contact me as and when you want.
you reply and hang up my calls and texts as and when u feel like.
I mean, i want a relationship.
You wanna me to wait and not give up.
yet you didnt show me that its worth waiting.
i dont need you to be my another 'friend' sending me vague msges like what am i doing and where am i.
If all you know is to do that to keep a girl to you,
Then i really 爱错了。
you should be asking yourself.
and you're asking me
because you dont even have an answer to yourself.
You find and contact me as and when you want.
you reply and hang up my calls and texts as and when u feel like.
I mean, i want a relationship.
You wanna me to wait and not give up.
yet you didnt show me that its worth waiting.
i dont need you to be my another 'friend' sending me vague msges like what am i doing and where am i.
If all you know is to do that to keep a girl to you,
Then i really 爱错了。
Tuesday, February 23
I really need to run away from here.
Everything is just so pressurising..
even entertainments are getting way tooo effort-taking.
Even someone i thought i could whine and cry to, finds fault with me.
ARGH.
So what if its the freakiing holidays.
more and more people will pick me up on all kinds of issues.
Can't someone just talk to me in a good way and dote on me? instead of pinpointing.
I really wish i could just keep everything to myself and die from it.
It's really very hard trying to keep my affections low..
Everything is just so pressurising..
even entertainments are getting way tooo effort-taking.
Even someone i thought i could whine and cry to, finds fault with me.
ARGH.
So what if its the freakiing holidays.
more and more people will pick me up on all kinds of issues.
Can't someone just talk to me in a good way and dote on me? instead of pinpointing.
I really wish i could just keep everything to myself and die from it.
It's really very hard trying to keep my affections low..
Monday, February 22
We met up a few times recently,
and he declared that he still has deep feelings for me,
and really wish we could really make this r/s so perfect once more,
but even if he belives that now...
can his friends change that?
They all (his friends) thinks I'm a controlling, home wrecking psycho-path that stole their best buddy away from them..
BUT..
My questions are:
1) Is there any such thing as being out of someone's league?
2) Can a guy be with a woman that his friends dont like?
3) Is there any way for me to get his friends to realize I'm not a bad person and that J is with me for a reason..?
4) I really dont want to lose him. He makes me smile but I'm worried about our future...
Can anyone give me some advice?
My head is throbbing..
and he declared that he still has deep feelings for me,
and really wish we could really make this r/s so perfect once more,
but even if he belives that now...
can his friends change that?
They all (his friends) thinks I'm a controlling, home wrecking psycho-path that stole their best buddy away from them..
BUT..
My questions are:
1) Is there any such thing as being out of someone's league?
2) Can a guy be with a woman that his friends dont like?
3) Is there any way for me to get his friends to realize I'm not a bad person and that J is with me for a reason..?
4) I really dont want to lose him. He makes me smile but I'm worried about our future...
Can anyone give me some advice?
My head is throbbing..
Thursday, February 11
Hope you made the right choice.
tonned over glenn house for some heart to heart sessions.
been ages since i really talked to him.
Last few days was hell. Literally luh.
Shag + Tired + Busy
slept at almost 6am everyday, siao one.
I'm like hooked on this website, so freakin interesting.
and yeah did some new year shopping for household stuffs.
i became like one of those Kpo aunties and 38 aunties roaming, squeezing to get last minute newyear thingy.
I brought some decorations Lol!
sibei chio i must admit hehe.
bo bian, good taste.
(all my exes definitely have excellent tastes for once having me) HAHAHA
But sadly, havent get my new year clothes yet.
think im going to get it done by tmrw or the day after.
and yeah, im totally going to change my hair.
I wanna prove to you, i can be soooo much prettier! HMPF!
anw. fuck it.
going to buy shorts, shoes, heels, dresses!
oh yeah, Sighh..
saw this shirt and shoes that prolly suit him.
Fucking nice, but aiya, he's not mine already..cant make him wear for me to seeeeeeeee:(
well, its Valentine's and New year sooon.
wonder what i'll do and who will ask me out on the 14th :(
but doubt so lah, and i dont think there's anything to celebrate abt for this year's Vday.
sign off
Sy.L
tonned over glenn house for some heart to heart sessions.
been ages since i really talked to him.
Last few days was hell. Literally luh.
Shag + Tired + Busy
slept at almost 6am everyday, siao one.
I'm like hooked on this website, so freakin interesting.
and yeah did some new year shopping for household stuffs.
i became like one of those Kpo aunties and 38 aunties roaming, squeezing to get last minute newyear thingy.
I brought some decorations Lol!
sibei chio i must admit hehe.
bo bian, good taste.
(all my exes definitely have excellent tastes for once having me) HAHAHA
But sadly, havent get my new year clothes yet.
think im going to get it done by tmrw or the day after.
and yeah, im totally going to change my hair.
I wanna prove to you, i can be soooo much prettier! HMPF!
anw. fuck it.
going to buy shorts, shoes, heels, dresses!
oh yeah, Sighh..
saw this shirt and shoes that prolly suit him.
Fucking nice, but aiya, he's not mine already..cant make him wear for me to seeeeeeeee:(
well, its Valentine's and New year sooon.
wonder what i'll do and who will ask me out on the 14th :(
but doubt so lah, and i dont think there's anything to celebrate abt for this year's Vday.
sign off
Sy.L
Friday, February 5
Story of my love
Finally understood the pain algin went through during that period of time.
He told me i wont last with J.
and we really didnt last.
what the hell.
to think back, it was all like a joke, a drama.
J tried so hard to woo me over,
algin pleaded me to come back .
but i didnt.
i moved on with J leaving him crying at home for months and years.
insomnia, heartaches, absence from school, partying, drinking, etc is what he faced & went thrg.
Algin told me i will receive the exact karma for being so HEARTLESS.
HEARTLESS is the word ive learnt from this lesson, because i never really did understand the real meaning of the word HEARTLESS.
at plently of times, Algin asked me why can't i give him another chance to prove that he will change and treat me better.
all i could reply him was: I'm sorry.
i know i was with J all the while and i really felt happy with J.
and i left someone who loved me so much at home crying everyday..
slowly, Time eventually heals.
Algin managed to pick himself up and move on with life without me.
he found his happiness and managed to put the sad past behind him.
and he is perfectly alright with his life.
He told me it is tough, but it is finally over.
i'm happy for him.
He told me i will regret being with J,
but i didnt regret and i never will.
this 2 years with him, ive learnt so much from J.
his obessesions over cars, family matters, accidents, overseas, r/s probs, etc..
i gave in my all and i really mean MY ALL.
i really have no regrets.
the only thing ive regretted is i finally see how much i stand in your heart.
I loved you more than you actually do.
When i fall, you didnt give me a helping hand.
When i cry, you didnt give me a shoulder to cry on.
When i need you, you wasnt there for me.
Even the day we broke up, you said it wont be the last time you will be seeing me.
you said you wont be ignoring me.
you said you will be there whenever i need.
you say you still care for me.
Because you still love me.
i still rememeber the last time we last saw each other was at my staircase.
It was the saddest day in my life.
i saw you leaving, walking away from me.
i never thought it would be the last time i could ever see you.
till now, i dont know how much youve changed..
how have you been..
how are you..
i know all these means nothing now
but i believe my love for you never dies
i really dont know how long your hatred towards me can last..
i really dont know how long can you stay hostile towards me..
i really dont know how long you can ignore me untill..
All i know now is,
i've received my karma.
and this is my karma now.
i am doing and living the life of what Algin had went through..
i've pleaded more than enough,
but you said this isnt what you want..
im really confused and tired..
since im not what you want, i shouldnt really stay anymore.
i just cant believe this is happening to me......to us...
i'm sorry
Finally understood the pain algin went through during that period of time.
He told me i wont last with J.
and we really didnt last.
what the hell.
to think back, it was all like a joke, a drama.
J tried so hard to woo me over,
algin pleaded me to come back .
but i didnt.
i moved on with J leaving him crying at home for months and years.
insomnia, heartaches, absence from school, partying, drinking, etc is what he faced & went thrg.
Algin told me i will receive the exact karma for being so HEARTLESS.
HEARTLESS is the word ive learnt from this lesson, because i never really did understand the real meaning of the word HEARTLESS.
at plently of times, Algin asked me why can't i give him another chance to prove that he will change and treat me better.
all i could reply him was: I'm sorry.
i know i was with J all the while and i really felt happy with J.
and i left someone who loved me so much at home crying everyday..
slowly, Time eventually heals.
Algin managed to pick himself up and move on with life without me.
he found his happiness and managed to put the sad past behind him.
and he is perfectly alright with his life.
He told me it is tough, but it is finally over.
i'm happy for him.
He told me i will regret being with J,
but i didnt regret and i never will.
this 2 years with him, ive learnt so much from J.
his obessesions over cars, family matters, accidents, overseas, r/s probs, etc..
i gave in my all and i really mean MY ALL.
i really have no regrets.
the only thing ive regretted is i finally see how much i stand in your heart.
I loved you more than you actually do.
When i fall, you didnt give me a helping hand.
When i cry, you didnt give me a shoulder to cry on.
When i need you, you wasnt there for me.
Even the day we broke up, you said it wont be the last time you will be seeing me.
you said you wont be ignoring me.
you said you will be there whenever i need.
you say you still care for me.
Because you still love me.
i still rememeber the last time we last saw each other was at my staircase.
It was the saddest day in my life.
i saw you leaving, walking away from me.
i never thought it would be the last time i could ever see you.
till now, i dont know how much youve changed..
how have you been..
how are you..
i know all these means nothing now
but i believe my love for you never dies
i really dont know how long your hatred towards me can last..
i really dont know how long can you stay hostile towards me..
i really dont know how long you can ignore me untill..
All i know now is,
i've received my karma.
and this is my karma now.
i am doing and living the life of what Algin had went through..
i've pleaded more than enough,
but you said this isnt what you want..
im really confused and tired..
since im not what you want, i shouldnt really stay anymore.
i just cant believe this is happening to me......to us...
i'm sorry
Thursday, February 4
Monday, February 1
Dont wanna cry
Dont wanna think back
i begged for the slightest mercy
but to no fucking avail
i really hope you're doing well.
i guess life without me would be awesome
no responsibilities
can meet chicks everynight for a spin
im tired of everything
i thought i could be so tough
but thinking at the way you shouted over the phone saying
FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE
I WILL NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN
I DONT EVER WANNA SEE YOU
WHATS THE POINT OF MEETING YOU WHEN YOU HURT ME SO MUCH
WHATS THE POINT OF MISSING A FUCKIN BITCH LIKE YOU
love conquers everything
i saw your love for me
i remember your mom telling you when you 2timed me before,' she said'
" she will forgive you and come back to you if she loves you"
but now, you leave me without last goodbye
no last kiss
no last touch and worst
no last meet up.
i ask myself whats the point of crying
i even told myself to wait for the day you come back to me.
i must be a fool to think that.
i hurt algin so much, yet he still beg me to come back even when i already have another r/s.
what is this.
how much do i stand in your heart?
forget it, just forget me.
you'll be happier.
you dont have to bother if im waiting for you still,
because you showed me its pointless waiting.
take care
Dont wanna think back
i begged for the slightest mercy
but to no fucking avail
i really hope you're doing well.
i guess life without me would be awesome
no responsibilities
can meet chicks everynight for a spin
im tired of everything
i thought i could be so tough
but thinking at the way you shouted over the phone saying
FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE
I WILL NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN
I DONT EVER WANNA SEE YOU
WHATS THE POINT OF MEETING YOU WHEN YOU HURT ME SO MUCH
WHATS THE POINT OF MISSING A FUCKIN BITCH LIKE YOU
love conquers everything
i saw your love for me
i remember your mom telling you when you 2timed me before,' she said'
" she will forgive you and come back to you if she loves you"
but now, you leave me without last goodbye
no last kiss
no last touch and worst
no last meet up.
i ask myself whats the point of crying
i even told myself to wait for the day you come back to me.
i must be a fool to think that.
i hurt algin so much, yet he still beg me to come back even when i already have another r/s.
what is this.
how much do i stand in your heart?
forget it, just forget me.
you'll be happier.
you dont have to bother if im waiting for you still,
because you showed me its pointless waiting.
take care
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