i felt the pain in the tears.

Last night, had dinner with my awesome friends plus you.
thanks for giving me such an unforgetable early birthday 'surprise'.
thanks people for being there with me whenever i neeed you guys.
you guys never fail to bring laugher and joy to my life.
sometimes little things in life that i may have over looked,
from now, i wanna cherish every friends, relationships i have in life.

Finally turning 18..
getting older as years go by,
friends stood by me whenever i fall, and picked me up, gave me the strength to continue moving on in life.
heart to heart talks with you ppl made me understand deepest meaning in life,
genuine love, and care.
i hope in my coming years, ive learnt what i went through, and never look back..

For you,
deepest thanks from me.
though sometimes your harsh and blunt words pierce through my heart so badly,
i still hope one day you will treat me and love me the way like you do in the past.
but i know one day even though our love for each other dies,
atleast i know i've tried so hard to salvage everything and live with no more regrets in this r/s.
once i rmb you asking me this qn,
'why did our love went wrong'
i thought throughh so much,
and finally know why.
as days being tgt with you gets longer, we both expect more from each other.
we expect more from what we want from each other in the beginning.
we expect each other to understand each other by keeping quiet.
i really dont know what shld i do now and im really lost.
to be honest, i know you dont love me anymore.
its that you dont want to see me being with other man, thats why you're holding on to me.
& when i really can see it in your eyes that your heart cant have me anymore,
i'll leave.