Sitting there wondering why am i there to worry for you, to keep pondering where are you? thinking that you might actually forget me somehow. i feel such a fool.

i used to believe in everything, but nah, there will be a change of heart. i really had enough of this. locking up myself just to devote my every time and minute and soul to that person, but in the end i get practically nothing, Nothing.

writing this post makes me feel more relieved or whatever it is. to those people who are reading, no matter what thoughts you have after reading this, i dont care, because you are not me. You WONT understand.

Last time i took all for granted now ive lost everything.

Do you even know what i am going through?

& thanks sam, for everything today.