Patience, guidance, care, love and passion are what you guys gave me all these while.

Without you people, i might not cope with my studies.

Thanks

you gave me the will to continue living and perservering on.

You encouraged and cheered me up in everyway.

Thanks

LIFE SUCKS SUCKS SUCKS




went back kr today
as usual im late i guess.
i made meiyi, dannie and algin waiting for me.
reached school.
saw miss lim, mrs tan, mr chan, madm tsuei.
haha.
mdm tsuei was like 'oh you are shinyi 'ar?!
i said, ' yep duh'
haha.
she said she couldnt recognise me at all
she nudged miss yeo and pointing to me saying, 'she is shinyi leh'!
hhaah
'kan bu chu leh'
haha. miss yeo said, ive turned prettier aww..
well, its just the fact, i guess.
so, dance performed, band and followed by choir.
i guess choir improved alot.
so received my award.
yay!
oh yeah, saw alot of old friends haha
really missed secondary school days.
meiyi gerri and me sat at our usual spot in school talking abt days we shared.
really really had sweet memeories and stuffs.
wished we all wouldnt separate at all.
gerri went sajc, meiyi to sp, and for me to np.
sad.
after awards day,
headed to reception for refreshments ahha
saw juniors and some seniors
chatted with them for a while.
realised, in life, we have to move on no matter who u are or what u are.
all we can look back, is only the best and sweetest memories left for us to appreaciate when we grow older.
farewell kent rigde, aloha to ngee ann(:

Phuket pictures!
havent upload all yet.
so yeap.

PHUKET DAY 2

alright, the second day (:
practically, we all slept at 5am for the first night.
crappp
hahaah super exhausted and dead, all thanks to dancing and drinking.
we woke up at 2pm?
haha super late i know.
we didnt get to eat our breakfast!
heard from andy they all they say its super delicious!!
the omlette and pineapple rice!
whooot
anw.
we ate macs=_=
and continued our shooping for awhile.
then we headed to the beach
with us, we brought allong our suntanning lotion, towels and sunglasses.
hahah.
me and jeff played the jet-ski.
so suave of him!
oh-so-cool((:
we are like riding against the current and i can tell you this feeling cant be described by anyone!
simply Awesome.
after ski-ing, slacked on the beach, watching the beautiful clear blue waters, pretty sands, marvellous shade of the sky , sun-kissed babes and hunk, nothing really beats being in Phuket.
array of thoughts flipped through my mind.
pasts, histroy, reflections ive made.
only thing i managed to conclude is that,
i shall cherish everything i have now and never have regrets in my life.
dawn came, nic and andy rent a bike and decided to roam the area.
so left with only us.
we went to ate tom yam
no really of the kick, but still YUMMY
after dinner, went for drinks again
ordered:
-sex on the beach
-heinkein
-tequilla
we all went high, seeing transexuals dancing on top of the table, gays and blah haha
indeed a fulfilling experience
aftermath, went BANANANA!
whooot.
16per tic.
music is thumbs up!
we had 2 free drinks, so we ordered
shots and beers.
imagine how high can we get!
oh lalaall
danced and partyed to 2am?
was fucking SHAG!
we cant even walk properly dud.
decided to go back hotel to wash up and chiong for 2round!
oh yeah, andy and nic got us super worried.
as u know, traffic in phuket aint that safe.
worried that incidents may happen
to my shock, it really happen.
and andy was badly injured.
i hope he is doing fine now
god bless(:
oh yep.
off to TAIPAN!
for more drinks and partying.
i need to apologise to my liver.
ahaha for the large amt intake of alcohol
as usual, dropped dead.
however for 2nd day, we slept much earlier, i gues?!
LOL

mummmy.
i feel like being alone now,
away from these miseries, worries, misunderstandings.
i wanna run away,
to a place where there is all strangers,
to let me start anew

PHUKET♥ (DAY 1)
hello.
ytd meiyi and friends pleaded me to blog abt my Phuket trip.
ahahaah
i guess i shall update abt it too, sorry for the delay, im just simply too lazy.

so recalling back,
i met Nicholas at Clementi Mrt ard 10.45 i guess.
headed to Changi Airport.
we chatted abt how fun its gonna be when we reach there.
get to see different kinds of ah quas was and transsexual,
the beautiful scenery despite the Tsunami last yr.
the previous time i went to phuket was 5 years back hhaha.
true enough, Phuket indeed changed alot.
it wasnt that messy as i thought, the traffic wasn't that busy as compared to what ive imagined it supposed to be.
so reached Airport, met guys at Burger king.
All of us are simply ecstatic and active.
so, we checked in got our boarding pass and went in.
jeff shopped for Gucci wallet for his Dad bdae, while nic and andy shop for the rest hahah
they brought vodka, cigar and stuffs
while i brought, my make up stuffs.
oh yah, to giselle!
theres FUCKING lot of V'S stuffs lah!
i bet you would die seeing them.
and they are fucking cheap toooooo
i didnt brought any of V'S. sad
and to lam! hell lot of perfume!
haha
when its abt time, we boarded the plane.
Nic was super hilarious, he didnt sit in a plane before, so he get super high when he saw the plane taking off, just like a 3 yr old boy
as for jeff, calmed and composed (:
so YAY, reached Phuket airport.
as usual, ppl will be outside the airport shouting "TUTU" haha.
ranging from 300 baht to 500 baht i guess?
in the end, we took a meter cab down to Patong beach hotel.
it was pretty long ride,
i observed life in phuket.
no rules, no regulations, no law.
absolutely freedom to them.
firstly, they can anyhow drive,
secondly, they do not have to obey the traffic.
thirdly, they do not have a limit on how many person sitting on the bike.
fucking cool yeah.
haha.
anyways, reached hotel,
the room is super
GLAMOROUS
ROMANTIC
$150 / night?
worth it man
so we threw our stuffs and TADAAAA.
OFF TO PLAY AND SHOP MUHAHA!!
can u just imagine how fun it is by read what ive typed?!
and i found out that there just a new big cool club just beside out hotel!!
BANANAANNA!!!
its 400baht for entry tic. which is $16. not cheap tho, but worthwhile!!!!
the music was IN, the base was SUPERB.
the light was WOOLALALLA!
so yeah, we shopped lot.
guys brought their BRANDED shirts, red bull singlets, Havanas flipflop,... definitely a place to buy good stuffs at cheap and bargained prices!
getting hungry, we ate at some seafood restaurant.
and it was fucking cheap.
theres this big fish abt 500g? i forgot!
it cost only $3???!!!
omg!!
pineapple rice only at $2!! WOOT
cheapcheap.
after eating, headed to hotel to change and then CHIONG ARHHHH
we went TAI PAN(:
its like where theres dance floor and tables for ppl to chill and watch football.
music was not bad.
not as good as banana.
i guess all of us was damn high in mood.
we danced till 5am?
after all the sweating, pounding, shaking, twisting, thumping blah....
we were all dead beat!!
oh yah, nic and andy got themselves a girl each ahahha
i would not say it out as to what they had done.
apparently, our 1st night ended satisfyingly (=

oh yeah people, i have to eat my lunch now, my mum's nagging, ill continue posting the activities in the next few posts yea?
till then(:

am i doing the right things?
am i being more and more rebellious?
am i really that nuisance to you?
do you really wanna me to fuck off?
am i living my life the proper way?

im so hurt by what youve said to me today.
so worthless, useless i can be.
all thanks to you.
it seems to you like its absolutely pointless for me to carrry on living.
yes, i seldom stay at home.
but does it even means im out to do detestable and cheap things?
do you know it is heartbreaking to know that youve given up hope on me?
you guys are the ones who loved me the most.
you cant possibly loathe me and dump me aside
i need you
i didnt meant to lie and spout vuglarities.
everything just went out of control.
as for you.
please dont say how much you still love me
dont say you will be there for me
dont even rank up the past
i wanna just continue living my life peacefully
tears and time ive cried and spent on you,
just forget it alright
find someone else.
dont cry.
its pointless.
just continue letting me rot.
il never become what i am in the past.

BYE PEOPLE€ (:
LOVE<3

WWOOOOOO
Few more hours and im leaving for Phuket!!
im so gonna see wendy at Phuket.
gonna get myself into relaxed mode.
been such a hectic week,
i wannna enjoyyy myself.
just temporarily put my troubles aside and unwind myself.
just imagine lying on the clear blue water with sun blazing on my skin,
woot. sun-kissed babe (:
im so high now!
oh yeah.
met kiang jeng,yong,xiang,yaozhong and damien to slack.
they said my nose look damn funny,
shit lah.
its super duper red luh.
how am i supposed to fly to phuket with such ugly nose.
hahah

PS: I'll be back on saturday. 14/june. you guys are deeply missed!

the way you left me on the train, i dont know what to say, i rememeber everything that day. i just need one more chance to share the sunset of last romance.

you didnt text me much today.
where have you been
what have you done for the entire day.
i feel like im like someone irrelevant in your life.
i have completely no idea how are you doing today.
well, im tired.
goodnight

爱情是个梦，而我睡过头。

Mr. Momo.
where are you?
im sick of hiding.
im clueless, swimming in this vast ocean with no direction board in my sight.
what am i supposed to do?
im so so so so lost

being in love, the happiest thing on earth you can have
once out of love, you feel empty.
now, youre feeling this way, is because, you took my love for you for granted.
you simply dont cherish me.
the thought of me leaving you never comes to you.
never you will imagine this day indeed come true.
i decided to leave you
No matter how much promises both of us made,
be it on the streets, on your couch, under the stars, on the beach or in your arms,
its just wont happen anymore.
illusions of our future home, kids, career, are now gone.
you broke my heart once and once again.
you gave me happines, yes you do.
however, they are not everlasting.
you said you would bless me if ive found the right guy.
you said you will always be supporting me no matter what i am to you.
since now, im letting our past as history why dont you try to let go too?
isnt it be much better than holding on to something that doesnt even exist anymore?
algin, i know you can do it.
its the will in your heart that controls your mind and soul.
let bygones be bygones.

dammit.

i feel fat again!

FUCK.

i am sick also.

and i have a bad hair day today.

YUCKS

why am i so SUAY......

im suppose to meet someone today

but i feel like shit now.

rotting away on my couch.

UURGHH

get me out of this world now please!

Hot people!!
OMG, screams!

Right, apart from this afternoon's crap ive said earlier on,

i went out to relax instead of coping myself up in my room

went to BQ to chill and chit chat as usual.

wanted to drink initially, but like dont know because of whatever reason,

ended up in TCC.

and i REALISED its a super duper uber good and interesting place to reallyRELAX and CHILL.

the lights was kinda dim,

peaceful music.

curtains drawn to improve the ambience.

bean bags lying around.

shelves of magazines, and latest gossips available to grab and check out.

excellent services, and afforable prices.

yeah.so worth while spendin whole day there(:

Feeling super Emotional right now.

i decided to change my blog song

my life now is at a mess.

i woke up at 3.45pm just now.

i slept at 6am this morning.

i feel so sick, so sick.

i just wish i could sleep forever.

i look into the mirror.

realised my eyes are starting to swell.

eye bags are getting obvious.

my skin is ageing.

i look pale, lifeless and ugly.

im like only 17 this year.

man, i look like a 80 year old granny

soon, i starting crying.

and the ridiculous thing is, i have completely no iidea why i cried.

i need a shoulder just now.

but no one is there for me.

i guess i have to be strong.

so what if the whole world despises me and misunderstand the type of girl i am.

i am Lim Shin Yi.

i know who am i.

i know what im doing.

and i know what ive done/not done to deserve all this shit.

i shallnt be paranoid anymore

ARGGG

CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP

i wannna vent alll my anger out nowwwwwwwwwwwww

Well, went dental early in the morning today.
the dentist said i could remove my braces soon.
im so happy.
imagine how i have to clean my teeth after every meal.
troublesome.
and its super uglam.
digging the food particles inbetween the teeth. yuckls
so after dental.
headed to kbox at JE
oh yar.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHAN NIAN!!
hope you like my present!
hahah
they all went crazy in kbox.
spraying coloured ribbons or whatever it is.
confetti all around lying on the ground.
wtf man ahah
and as usual, zhan nian got his face filled with Choco cake!
haha
and they twisted his nipple 18times!!!
OMFG
damn super duper uber pain siaL!!!!!!!!
i wish they wont do this to me on my bdae
oh fuck.
laptop no batt.
shitttttttttt

yay. today marks the end of my exams!!!

wooot

tmrw going too celebrate!!!

and im leaving spore very very sooon to phuket!!

so exciting.