Had A math paper today.
it was "difficult".
the word difficult was written in ITALIC because of someone.
he told me to stop saying the paper was easy.
the reason was that people will get jealous.
oh please. can u put yourself into my shoes?
if you were to sit for your POA paper and u can do almost all questions and feel that it was fucking easy, wont you be HAPPY?
and when you step out of exam hall, and ppl asked you how was the paper, you would eventually say it was EASY right. it makes sense.
as it, for the pass 10 years of education the most crucial exam is O LEVEL. and if you find the paper easy, wont you go crazy and wish to tell the world you can do?
Moreover, you are someone dearest and closest to me. the more i should let you know how i feel. i wouldn't like to hide my feelings. and i dont see any reason why i have to do that.
also. i dont go around shouting " oh this paper was FUCKING EASY."

the reason i felt so disappointed now is because HE didnt even say congrats, yet he PROVOKED me in a way or so. and HE WAS ANGRY WITH ME WITH NO APPARENT REASON. wtf.

there was once he told me that he scored the top in his tuition class and he claimed that combined science questions are fucking easy. isnt what he is saying contridicting? making me jealous or what? even though its easy he shouldnt had said it out in the first place. AND YEA, i know saying that a math paper was easy
to some of my friends had made them felt demoralised. but i'm sorry THIS IS O LEVELS, I CANT HELP IT BUT TO SAY. I'M JUST HAPPY.

ANYWAY. you just made me felt so BULLSHIT.
i wont expose my inner most feelings to you anymore because i just realised you are not able to accept the happiness that i have.

i was shattered by your words.