HAPPY HALLOWEEN.
didnt went for any parties. sigh.
halloween parties are just so fucking cool lar.
hah. TRICK OR TREAT!
its so damn fun receiving candies and choco from the others. hahah.
BOOBBY.
Tuesday, October 30
Saturday, October 27
last night i dreamt about something and it made me cry.
i wish it wont happen to me. please.
now, i'm single.
i know ive made him so hurt and pain.
and its all to blame that i didnt cherish him in the past.
Do you know its so easy to fall in love with you, but difficult to let you go?
every night when i'm alone in my room, i tried to avoid thinking about you, but i just cant.
our laughter our memories just keep ringing up in my mind.
i sob under my blanket.
every morning my eyes are so red and swollen.
and its all because of love.
why must love be so cruel.
perhaps its b'coz i cant accept the fact you left me.
i aint your destined girl now.
our fairytale was all a illusion.
theres no one i can hold hands with and lean on.
no one will be there to pamper me like a princess
no one will be there to listen to me pour out my heart;s contents
i cant be with you all the time like i do in the past.
we are just ordinary friends.
i wish it wont happen to me. please.
now, i'm single.
i know ive made him so hurt and pain.
and its all to blame that i didnt cherish him in the past.
Do you know its so easy to fall in love with you, but difficult to let you go?
every night when i'm alone in my room, i tried to avoid thinking about you, but i just cant.
our laughter our memories just keep ringing up in my mind.
i sob under my blanket.
every morning my eyes are so red and swollen.
and its all because of love.
why must love be so cruel.
perhaps its b'coz i cant accept the fact you left me.
i aint your destined girl now.
our fairytale was all a illusion.
theres no one i can hold hands with and lean on.
no one will be there to pamper me like a princess
no one will be there to listen to me pour out my heart;s contents
i cant be with you all the time like i do in the past.
we are just ordinary friends.
Thursday, October 25
okay. since GEOGRAPHY is over, i;m not gonna broad over it.
I'm Left with,
*ENGLISH PAPER 1
*ENGLISH PAPER 2
*MATHEMATICS PAPER 1
*MATHEMATICS PAPER 2
*PHYSICS PAPER 1
*PHYSICS PAPER 2
*SOCIAL STUDIES
*BIOLOGY PAPER 1
*BIOLOGY PAPER 2
*CHEMISTRY PAPER 1.
It seems that i still have fuckng hell load more, who ask me act smart go into triple science class. haha. BUT i never regretted. teachers stretches us to our maximum potential. classmates are always there to help. we challenge each other and bring ourselves into a higher level.
O LEVELS are soon going to be over. YAY!
next paper math. i am going to get A1 for no matter reason. i shall give myself no excuse to get A2 for e math. i'm not trying to boast myself, but i think i have the potential. of course, it always comes with hard work ((=
As for A math, i think i would perhaps get B3. if i think a math was easy, i guess the whole world think the same way too. and DADA, POOF, my A1 is gone.
NEVERMIND. PRESERVER ON.
I'm Left with,
*ENGLISH PAPER 1
*ENGLISH PAPER 2
*MATHEMATICS PAPER 1
*MATHEMATICS PAPER 2
*PHYSICS PAPER 1
*PHYSICS PAPER 2
*SOCIAL STUDIES
*BIOLOGY PAPER 1
*BIOLOGY PAPER 2
*CHEMISTRY PAPER 1.
It seems that i still have fuckng hell load more, who ask me act smart go into triple science class. haha. BUT i never regretted. teachers stretches us to our maximum potential. classmates are always there to help. we challenge each other and bring ourselves into a higher level.
O LEVELS are soon going to be over. YAY!
next paper math. i am going to get A1 for no matter reason. i shall give myself no excuse to get A2 for e math. i'm not trying to boast myself, but i think i have the potential. of course, it always comes with hard work ((=
As for A math, i think i would perhaps get B3. if i think a math was easy, i guess the whole world think the same way too. and DADA, POOF, my A1 is gone.
NEVERMIND. PRESERVER ON.
Wednesday, October 24
Monday, October 22
Had A math paper today.
it was "difficult".
the word difficult was written in ITALIC because of someone.
he told me to stop saying the paper was easy.
the reason was that people will get jealous.
oh please. can u put yourself into my shoes?
if you were to sit for your POA paper and u can do almost all questions and feel that it was fucking easy, wont you be HAPPY?
and when you step out of exam hall, and ppl asked you how was the paper, you would eventually say it was EASY right. it makes sense.
as it, for the pass 10 years of education the most crucial exam is O LEVEL. and if you find the paper easy, wont you go crazy and wish to tell the world you can do?
Moreover, you are someone dearest and closest to me. the more i should let you know how i feel. i wouldn't like to hide my feelings. and i dont see any reason why i have to do that.
also. i dont go around shouting " oh this paper was FUCKING EASY."
the reason i felt so disappointed now is because HE didnt even say congrats, yet he PROVOKED me in a way or so. and HE WAS ANGRY WITH ME WITH NO APPARENT REASON. wtf.
there was once he told me that he scored the top in his tuition class and he claimed that combined science questions are fucking easy. isnt what he is saying contridicting? making me jealous or what? even though its easy he shouldnt had said it out in the first place. AND YEA, i know saying that a math paper was easy
to some of my friends had made them felt demoralised. but i'm sorry THIS IS O LEVELS, I CANT HELP IT BUT TO SAY. I'M JUST HAPPY.
ANYWAY. you just made me felt so BULLSHIT.
i wont expose my inner most feelings to you anymore because i just realised you are not able to accept the happiness that i have.
i was shattered by your words.
it was "difficult".
the word difficult was written in ITALIC because of someone.
he told me to stop saying the paper was easy.
the reason was that people will get jealous.
oh please. can u put yourself into my shoes?
if you were to sit for your POA paper and u can do almost all questions and feel that it was fucking easy, wont you be HAPPY?
and when you step out of exam hall, and ppl asked you how was the paper, you would eventually say it was EASY right. it makes sense.
as it, for the pass 10 years of education the most crucial exam is O LEVEL. and if you find the paper easy, wont you go crazy and wish to tell the world you can do?
Moreover, you are someone dearest and closest to me. the more i should let you know how i feel. i wouldn't like to hide my feelings. and i dont see any reason why i have to do that.
also. i dont go around shouting " oh this paper was FUCKING EASY."
the reason i felt so disappointed now is because HE didnt even say congrats, yet he PROVOKED me in a way or so. and HE WAS ANGRY WITH ME WITH NO APPARENT REASON. wtf.
there was once he told me that he scored the top in his tuition class and he claimed that combined science questions are fucking easy. isnt what he is saying contridicting? making me jealous or what? even though its easy he shouldnt had said it out in the first place. AND YEA, i know saying that a math paper was easy
to some of my friends had made them felt demoralised. but i'm sorry THIS IS O LEVELS, I CANT HELP IT BUT TO SAY. I'M JUST HAPPY.
ANYWAY. you just made me felt so BULLSHIT.
i wont expose my inner most feelings to you anymore because i just realised you are not able to accept the happiness that i have.
i was shattered by your words.
Sunday, October 21
Friday, October 19
-Kissed someone on your top friends?
yea.
-Been arrested?
No
-Kissed someone you didn't like?
yea
-You like someone?
ALGIN
-Held a snake?
nah.
-Been suspended from school?
no.
-Been fired from a job?
NO.
-Sang karaoke?
just few days back
-Done something you told yourselfyou wouldn't?
yea. Belly piercing
-Laughed until you started crying?
like always
-Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
i'd wish too
-Kissed in the rain?
thats interesting, but sadly had not.
-Sang in the shower?
everyday
-Sat on a roof top?
nope
-Been pushed into a pool with allyour clothes on?
no. i will kill him/her
-Broken a bone?
how abt twisted?
-Shaved your head?
i would wan to try
-Played a prank on someone?
yep
-Had/have a gym membership?
soon
-Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
YEAH
- Shot a gun?
YES! at the head and heart somemore!
yea.
-Been arrested?
No
-Kissed someone you didn't like?
yea
-You like someone?
ALGIN
-Held a snake?
nah.
-Been suspended from school?
no.
-Been fired from a job?
NO.
-Sang karaoke?
just few days back
-Done something you told yourselfyou wouldn't?
yea. Belly piercing
-Laughed until you started crying?
like always
-Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
i'd wish too
-Kissed in the rain?
thats interesting, but sadly had not.
-Sang in the shower?
everyday
-Sat on a roof top?
nope
-Been pushed into a pool with allyour clothes on?
no. i will kill him/her
-Broken a bone?
how abt twisted?
-Shaved your head?
i would wan to try
-Played a prank on someone?
yep
-Had/have a gym membership?
soon
-Made a girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
YEAH
- Shot a gun?
YES! at the head and heart somemore!
Thursday, October 18
ALL my practicals are finally over.
exams are just so cool.
its like you're challenging yourself, its either you get fucking happy about it or you get demoralised by it.
anyway, just quick end this damn thing lah.
for now, my brain is occupied by him.
those biology termology cant seem to enter my brain.
ARG. its driving me insane.
we just had an arguement over the phone.
and again, we broke up.wtf.
how i really wish that we never ever know each other.
loving each other = allowing each other to suffer.
the deeper the feelings,the disappointed you get at the end.
as for now, i'm not going to think about him.
no matter what bullshit crap he is going to say will not affect my mood because my heart is already dead.
why dead?
because of him.
i will never ever love someone again.
exams are just so cool.
its like you're challenging yourself, its either you get fucking happy about it or you get demoralised by it.
anyway, just quick end this damn thing lah.
for now, my brain is occupied by him.
those biology termology cant seem to enter my brain.
ARG. its driving me insane.
we just had an arguement over the phone.
and again, we broke up.wtf.
how i really wish that we never ever know each other.
loving each other = allowing each other to suffer.
the deeper the feelings,the disappointed you get at the end.
as for now, i'm not going to think about him.
no matter what bullshit crap he is going to say will not affect my mood because my heart is already dead.
why dead?
because of him.
i will never ever love someone again.
Saturday, October 13
To darl:
dont call me. dont waste your time on me.
just imagine that i've left the world.
when you close your eyes, dont think of me.
when you speak, dont say out my name.
i know i cannot make up for the things that i had done to hurt you, so the best way is to separate.
i know you will say how come i am able to let go this relationship so easily.
you will say i am cruel, i am a bitch.
but, dont you see? whenever you are with me, you arent happy. seriously are you? at the end of the day, you regretted going out with me because i spoill your day. So, why be together with someone who spoill your day? who doesnt shower you all the care and concern?
i also know you will say since I treat this relatioship like shit, then you had regretted being with me for the previous 1 year. you will keep on trying to make me fucking jealous about this and that.
i know you too well. For now, dont try to do things to make us sad.
perhaps one day, both of us may realise how childish are we.
dont call me. dont waste your time on me.
just imagine that i've left the world.
when you close your eyes, dont think of me.
when you speak, dont say out my name.
i know i cannot make up for the things that i had done to hurt you, so the best way is to separate.
i know you will say how come i am able to let go this relationship so easily.
you will say i am cruel, i am a bitch.
but, dont you see? whenever you are with me, you arent happy. seriously are you? at the end of the day, you regretted going out with me because i spoill your day. So, why be together with someone who spoill your day? who doesnt shower you all the care and concern?
i also know you will say since I treat this relatioship like shit, then you had regretted being with me for the previous 1 year. you will keep on trying to make me fucking jealous about this and that.
i know you too well. For now, dont try to do things to make us sad.
perhaps one day, both of us may realise how childish are we.
i saw his msg this morning.
and i knew this would be what he say.
i really want to end this relationship not because i dont love him.
its because we belong to different world.
from his every little actions, i see somethings.
something that really broke my heart
perhaps he doesnt know it.
but its hurting.
i tried to be ignorant to this.
but i soon find out that i cant hide this fact anymore.
i dont wish to say what he had done wrong
because i decided to not let this continue on.
i can adapt to living alone.
but i am unable see him suffering.
i remembered he told me that we will last forever.
i remembered his face, his voice, his smile everyday before i kiss goodnight to each day.
anyway, please dont find me up anymore.
let everything end here.
and i knew this would be what he say.
i really want to end this relationship not because i dont love him.
its because we belong to different world.
from his every little actions, i see somethings.
something that really broke my heart
perhaps he doesnt know it.
but its hurting.
i tried to be ignorant to this.
but i soon find out that i cant hide this fact anymore.
i dont wish to say what he had done wrong
because i decided to not let this continue on.
i can adapt to living alone.
but i am unable see him suffering.
i remembered he told me that we will last forever.
i remembered his face, his voice, his smile everyday before i kiss goodnight to each day.
anyway, please dont find me up anymore.
let everything end here.
Friday, October 12
Thursday, October 11
Monday, October 8
1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
my boyfriend.
2. When shopping at the grocery store,do you return your cart?
i do.
3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?Yes, I will.
if its him, i will.
4. Do you take compliments well?
well, it depends on situation
5. Do you play Sudoku?
no. it adds misery to my life
6. If abandoned alone in thewilderness would you survive?
yeap
7. If your house were on fire, whatwould be the first thing you wouldsave?
myself
8 . Who was the last person you sleptin the bed with?
my boyfriend
9 . Who do you text the most?
my boyfriend
10 . Favorite childrens book?
Nope
11. Eye color?
brown
12. How tall are you?
163cm
13. If you could do it over again,start from scratch, would you???
Nope. its hard to get to where i am today.
15 . When was the last time you were atBotanic Garden?
Forget.
16. Favorite ex..?
SECRET
17 . Where was the furthest place youtraveled?
China
18. Do you like mustard?
EW
19. Do you prefer to sleep or play?
Depends.
21. Do you miss anyone?
YES
22 . Can you do splits?
ALMOST!
23. What movie do you want to see right now?
The jounery of my life.
24 . What did you do for New Years Eve?
Clubbing
25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
Absolutely
26. Do you own a camera phone?
YEAP
27 . Are you a cheerleader?
HELL YEA
28. Whats the last letter of yourmiddle name?
N
29 . Are you hispanic?
Sometimes
31. Do you like care bears?
What is that man.
32 . What do you buy at the Movies?
HOTDOGS, NACHOS
33. Do you know how to play poker?
DEFINTELY.
34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
NOPE.
35. What do you wear to sleep?
BRA AND GIRL BOXER
36. Anything big ever happen in yourCITY?
RIOTING. HAHA
37. Is your hair straight or curly?
MIXED?
38. Is your tongue pierced?
I WOULD WANT TO HAVE ONE
39. Do you like Liver and Onions?
ONIONS ARE GOOD!
.40. Do you like funny or serious people better?
FUNNY
41 . Ever been to L.A.?
MY DESIRED PLACE
42 . Who is on your mind right now?
MY BOY
43 .any plans 4 tonight?
MUG FOR PHYSICS
44. Whats your fav. song at the moment?
PAULA DENANDA-EASY
45. Do you hate chocolate?
I LOVE IT LIKE HEL
46. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
TALKING ON THE PHONE FOR HOURS?
47. Are you a gullible person?
DAMN WISE.
48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
ACTUALLY YAH.
49. If you could have any job whatwould it be?
FORSENIC/ DETECTIVE/DOCTOR
50. Are you easy to get along with?
ALWAYS
51. What is your favorite time of day?
NIGHT
52. Are you generally a happy person?
HELLA YES!
my boyfriend.
2. When shopping at the grocery store,do you return your cart?
i do.
3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?Yes, I will.
if its him, i will.
4. Do you take compliments well?
well, it depends on situation
5. Do you play Sudoku?
no. it adds misery to my life
6. If abandoned alone in thewilderness would you survive?
yeap
7. If your house were on fire, whatwould be the first thing you wouldsave?
myself
8 . Who was the last person you sleptin the bed with?
my boyfriend
9 . Who do you text the most?
my boyfriend
10 . Favorite childrens book?
Nope
11. Eye color?
brown
12. How tall are you?
163cm
13. If you could do it over again,start from scratch, would you???
Nope. its hard to get to where i am today.
15 . When was the last time you were atBotanic Garden?
Forget.
16. Favorite ex..?
SECRET
17 . Where was the furthest place youtraveled?
China
18. Do you like mustard?
EW
19. Do you prefer to sleep or play?
Depends.
21. Do you miss anyone?
YES
22 . Can you do splits?
ALMOST!
23. What movie do you want to see right now?
The jounery of my life.
24 . What did you do for New Years Eve?
Clubbing
25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
Absolutely
26. Do you own a camera phone?
YEAP
27 . Are you a cheerleader?
HELL YEA
28. Whats the last letter of yourmiddle name?
N
29 . Are you hispanic?
Sometimes
31. Do you like care bears?
What is that man.
32 . What do you buy at the Movies?
HOTDOGS, NACHOS
33. Do you know how to play poker?
DEFINTELY.
34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
NOPE.
35. What do you wear to sleep?
BRA AND GIRL BOXER
36. Anything big ever happen in yourCITY?
RIOTING. HAHA
37. Is your hair straight or curly?
MIXED?
38. Is your tongue pierced?
I WOULD WANT TO HAVE ONE
39. Do you like Liver and Onions?
ONIONS ARE GOOD!
.40. Do you like funny or serious people better?
FUNNY
41 . Ever been to L.A.?
MY DESIRED PLACE
42 . Who is on your mind right now?
MY BOY
43 .any plans 4 tonight?
MUG FOR PHYSICS
44. Whats your fav. song at the moment?
PAULA DENANDA-EASY
45. Do you hate chocolate?
I LOVE IT LIKE HEL
46. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
TALKING ON THE PHONE FOR HOURS?
47. Are you a gullible person?
DAMN WISE.
48. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy?
ACTUALLY YAH.
49. If you could have any job whatwould it be?
FORSENIC/ DETECTIVE/DOCTOR
50. Are you easy to get along with?
ALWAYS
51. What is your favorite time of day?
NIGHT
52. Are you generally a happy person?
HELLA YES!
i felt as though i;ve survived through a tragedy.
i was relived as well as disappointed.
my life seemed so vulnerable as though god as is going to snatch it away from me.
i woke up with tears, just to know that i'd just had a nightmare.
monsters are like my problems, the vampires are like my obstacles.
luckily, everything is over.
i opened my eyes and saw familiar faces.
i smiled.
i thought i aint going to see my darl's face again.
i will love him even more.
I LOVE YOU.
i was relived as well as disappointed.
my life seemed so vulnerable as though god as is going to snatch it away from me.
i woke up with tears, just to know that i'd just had a nightmare.
monsters are like my problems, the vampires are like my obstacles.
luckily, everything is over.
i opened my eyes and saw familiar faces.
i smiled.
i thought i aint going to see my darl's face again.
i will love him even more.
I LOVE YOU.
Saturday, October 6
Tuesday, October 2
I'M WRONG.
I'M WRONG.
I'M WRONG.
IVE DONE SOMTHING TERRIBLE TODAY.
algin. i cant believe ive did somthing that hurt you alot.
i know wad i say is redundant now.
i'm stupid. i lost a guy who really loved me.
SHINYI IS A FOOL!!!!
ARGGGG..i really miss the times we were together.
i dont know what to say now.
ive got nth to say,
ive lost the most crucial thing in my life.
i browsed thrg our memories just now.
there were laughters and joys.
were those fake or really from our heart?
now, i have to imagine that guy which stood beside before is now FOREVER gone.
i cant take this
this reltionship meant alot to me.
why must i be in this state now?
I'M WRONG.
I'M WRONG.
IVE DONE SOMTHING TERRIBLE TODAY.
algin. i cant believe ive did somthing that hurt you alot.
i know wad i say is redundant now.
i'm stupid. i lost a guy who really loved me.
SHINYI IS A FOOL!!!!
ARGGGG..i really miss the times we were together.
i dont know what to say now.
ive got nth to say,
ive lost the most crucial thing in my life.
i browsed thrg our memories just now.
there were laughters and joys.
were those fake or really from our heart?
now, i have to imagine that guy which stood beside before is now FOREVER gone.
i cant take this
this reltionship meant alot to me.
why must i be in this state now?
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