i feel abit constipated now
oh god.
today's camp world tour at np sucks.
but kinda rewarding tho.
saw many activities and ccas.
pretty amazing.
i thought of joinin the gym for my sports and wellness.
but also kinda of usless coz i alr sign up for california fitness.
well, il see abt that
made a friend there.
oh yes smthg i forgot to say
in my camp grp,
most of the ppl are like from pretty gggoooood schools like CHIJ,st marg, mediotist(dunnoe how to spell it for fuck)
aiya. feel so stupid there.
but come to think of it,
actually i shldnt feel dumb
coz, EVENTUALLY, you people are still in BUSINESS STUDIES, same as me right.
so i bet ur Olevel agg not that good also.
haha.
okay la. not that mean la.
im just comforting myself.
so we had ice-breaker games.
heng sia.
i didnt do the forefit.
muhaha
after games headed to the convention hall.
performances one after another.
pretty awesome.
better than KR.
ok so the end.

and yeah.
i feel fat
as i said i feel constipated too.
like what the hell
feel like diggin all the shit out man.
tml another long day.
from 8-6.
nono.
8-10pm.
going gym after np.
hehe
coz i feel fat!

seriously bitch,
i miss you.
though for what you did to me, im kinda sad.
last night i dreamt abt you.
the times we had together.
siimply awesome man
i rmb when i was in your hse.
you actually really cared for me alot.
you gave me blanket when i was sleeping.
you made me feel comfortable.
i was touched.
i know you love me that time.
you told me you dont wanna lose me.
i reqally regret treating you that way
i wan us to last.
but now, you initiated.
i dont know what should i do now.
sobs.

Its fuckin' irritating.
i'ma overwhelmed by this feeling.
boy, you're all over my mind including ma ass.
I MISS YOU
i wanna meet you NOW!
i could just die right now.

i know i wont be there with him after poly starts.
he sent me his timetable.
i compared it between mine.
most of the days we cant meet at all
i felt like shit,
i suddenly felt we wont last.
coz i believe the number of hours and time spend together affects a r/s greatly.
it really does.
stupid unecessary misunderstandings arises.
lack of communication
lack of love and secure.
love will fade.
not straight away, but slowly.
you might not realise it , however u can feel that u arent caring and expecting much from him than last time.
aiya,
i feel that im crappin again
emo like hell
stop.
i have to stop.
whatever has to happen will happen.
i will try as much to sustain this r/s
because i truthfully love him.

im fukin lazy recently.

omg.

do you know i sat infront of my com from i wake up till now which is like 8pm now.

and what have i done?

nothing!!

absolutely nothing.

omfg.

i know i should not be overreacting over this.

but i just cant believe it.

i played viwawa, friendster and watched hana kimi in youtubbe again.

its super funny

jiro is the funniest.

ella's impression can make me roll over the floor laughing.

ahhahahahahaha

seriously, its time for me to wake up alr.

a couple of days later, school is starting.

i have to be independent.

most of my friends are not in the same course as me.

i have to do things myself.

shinyi. please wake up bah.