Hey there, stranger.

It’s been a very long time, which I’m sure you’re aware of. I’d like to say that it was your decision alone to keep this distance, but I think we both know it was for the best. I’d like to say that I’m glad you are well, but as we both know I have absolutely no idea how you are. The one thing that can definitely be said is that when we cut ties, we leave no strand behind, but slice right through until we no longer remember how to find each other. It’s amazing to think that once we were inseparable, the best of friends.

You knew me inside and out, and I, you. We were there for each other in the best of times and through the most difficult of times. We definitely managed to put each other through hell on occasion, but when support was needed the most, support was given. Until, of course, that final day. I sometimes find myself wondering why we couldn't stay in touch. Would it be so bad if we got together for coffee from time to time? Or if we gave each other a ring to see how the other was doing?

Using the phone to make calls has become archaic, but surely we could send a text to wish each other a happy birthday? Or a happy New Year? I mean, we've been through so much. You are a part of my life and there is nothing I can do to ever change that.

You can’t be because forgetting you would be like forgetting myself -impossible. But then again, maybe you are right. Maybe we are better off as far apart as possible. We know we aren't right for each other. We know it would never work, and we know the friendship we had created a bond that would make slipping back into romance too easy. It would make repeating the same mistakes too likely, repeating the same heartbreak certain. That’s what it really comes down to: It’s not my heart that I’m worried about, but yours. Breaking my own heart would be my responsibility to bear, but I can’t once again be responsible for breaking yours.

So all that I can do is wish you the best. Wish you a great, bright, loving future. Wish you to find the lover of your dreams and to create a lifetime of your fantasies. I wish for you to find a friend as great as me, but a much better partner. One who won’t drag you through the mud. One who you won’t feel the need to bury with guilt. I wish you all the best and although you will never read this, although we will never speak to each other again, and although you are out of my life forever, I wish you nothing short of happiness.

Never again to be yours, 

Lost Love
2014

wasted youth on you

I'm finally numbed, so please don't get me rescued

I learned a lot about falling in love when i fell out of love



I learned a lot about being a friend when i was alone

One day you will look back and regret the multitude of mistakes you made; how you founded your life and happiness now which are based on worthless dreams and wounded choices. For the knowledge and truth that you possessed, your choices made were of calculated scheme and evil. I do not wish you the best. May karma haunt you for as long as you dwell in the thoughts of a mind as dark as night.

'and forgive me if I tend to romanticise the past'  quoted

The best relationship is when you can completely act yourself and they can still love you for who you are. #twitter

 

Thumbs up baby

Too young

read thrg posts that i wrote over the years.
didnt thought i was so immature in the past.
i realised as i grow older, thoughts and words tend to decline. prolly due to privacy or i just dont wanna open up to anyone
everyone just cant be trusted
well things took a change recently...
am glad i have someone whom i can talk to with
but on a negative note, i really do expect a lot now somehow..
be it on myself or others.
cant seem to tolerate it..
sigh

been busy with day outs, projects, meetings, bdaes and family...
hope this year ends well, coz really had a rough beginning this year
i am glad i have buddies who can almost sacrifice themselves for me. iloveyouall.

sooooo pweeeetie (:

The reason behind your smile wasnt me..

ive got a weak heart

cant wait for halloween

this year's halloween gonna be so amazing (:















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Thank you for the final closure. Goodbye

Why do people have to go one big round before they know who their love is?

to someone whom i used to share so much memories with

I'm leaving. We have been in this love circle for quite awhile. Even after you found someone new, you told me part of you still misses me. I think we both should know that feelings are still lingering between us. From the start till now you never really sort out your feelings between me and her. Just like what i've said, I dont wanna wait anymore, therefore it will do us good to walk separate ways. Being away from each other will allow us to see how important we are to each other. If we both feel the same way, it'll mean that we meant the most to each other. If it doesn't, I guess we were never meant to be.

i'm sorry

I wonder how many episodes of disappointment does it take for one to come to any sort of sublime conclusion. I don’t think many questions in life can be answered but we still seek them anyway. Just like when to forgive and move on, or when to give up and realize, it all depends on our cognitive abilities.

We picked up where we left off

a better me

It’s a little bit horrifying just how quickly everything can fall to crap. Sometimes, it takes a huge loss to remind you of what you care about the most. Sometimes, you find yourself becoming stronger as a result. Wiser, better equipped to deal with the next disaster that comes along... Whatever it is... if happy ever after did exist, I would still be holding you like before. but all those fairy tales are full of shit. One more fucking love song i'll be sick...


Maybe you're right.. Someday, someone will come into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

It was such a good feeling :)
Over the weekends couszzie flew over from Melbourne! 
Went K twice last week!

You taught me that love is more than just an impulsive desire, but a large responsibility; not an instantaneous commitment. I’ve learnt not to claim love to anything/anyone unless I have the capacity to. I blame myself for faulting and committing a mistake of making a commitment to you instantly instead of thinking about it. Logic over influence or heart; I should not have put you through this, and put myself through all this guilt. I hope you find a better owner than me. Love you always Prince. x

listen up homies!