i'm caught in the middle of this dysfunction...

sooooo yeah,
received a call from mom that she havent made any arrangements for the overseas thingy,
she wanted me to think THRICE.
I'm really in a dilemma :(
Shld continue in SG or study abroad?
Is it really the best way out?
Or am i just running away?
Its so depressing.
I dont wanna leave my friends and close ones.
Howwwww.....

and for other aspects in life,
it's equally depressing.
i realise im so fucking ugly and short and fat.
didnt eat for 2 days still so fat like a pork pig, seriously

and dont understand whats up with his cold shoulder and mind fucking things..
anyways indirectly, everything ended like with a text?

wow