Story of my love
Finally understood the pain algin went through during that period of time.
He told me i wont last with J.
and we really didnt last.
what the hell.
to think back, it was all like a joke, a drama.
J tried so hard to woo me over,
algin pleaded me to come back .
but i didnt.
i moved on with J leaving him crying at home for months and years.
insomnia, heartaches, absence from school, partying, drinking, etc is what he faced & went thrg.
Algin told me i will receive the exact karma for being so HEARTLESS.
HEARTLESS is the word ive learnt from this lesson, because i never really did understand the real meaning of the word HEARTLESS.
at plently of times, Algin asked me why can't i give him another chance to prove that he will change and treat me better.
all i could reply him was: I'm sorry.
i know i was with J all the while and i really felt happy with J.
and i left someone who loved me so much at home crying everyday..
slowly, Time eventually heals.
Algin managed to pick himself up and move on with life without me.
he found his happiness and managed to put the sad past behind him.
and he is perfectly alright with his life.
He told me it is tough, but it is finally over.
i'm happy for him.
He told me i will regret being with J,
but i didnt regret and i never will.
this 2 years with him, ive learnt so much from J.
his obessesions over cars, family matters, accidents, overseas, r/s probs, etc..
i gave in my all and i really mean MY ALL.
i really have no regrets.
the only thing ive regretted is i finally see how much i stand in your heart.
I loved you more than you actually do.
When i fall, you didnt give me a helping hand.
When i cry, you didnt give me a shoulder to cry on.
When i need you, you wasnt there for me.
Even the day we broke up, you said it wont be the last time you will be seeing me.
you said you wont be ignoring me.
you said you will be there whenever i need.
you say you still care for me.
Because you still love me.
i still rememeber the last time we last saw each other was at my staircase.
It was the saddest day in my life.
i saw you leaving, walking away from me.
i never thought it would be the last time i could ever see you.
till now, i dont know how much youve changed..
how have you been..
how are you..
i know all these means nothing now
but i believe my love for you never dies
i really dont know how long your hatred towards me can last..
i really dont know how long can you stay hostile towards me..
i really dont know how long you can ignore me untill..
All i know now is,
i've received my karma.
and this is my karma now.
i am doing and living the life of what Algin had went through..
i've pleaded more than enough,
but you said this isnt what you want..
im really confused and tired..
since im not what you want, i shouldnt really stay anymore.
i just cant believe this is happening to me......to us...
i'm sorry