You're my Love lockdown
so please me love lockeddown.

27,28,29 DEC

To Chiang Wei Xiong:
there are practically too much doubts in you and your fucking words. Firstly, you said you were home playing ps3 cant fucking online. okay sua. if you think i believe you must be a loser and ultimate fool lah haha. anything man. you wanna bring girl back home fuck and suck not my problem. i pray and hope you got her pregnant and marry that Fugly bitch and happy forever. Secondly, you lost your wallet. who the fuck dont know where they lost their wallet. the first time you said was on the road, after that said you didnt actually know where u lost it. there are tooo many doubts here dude. Thirdly, your best friend is at your house. wth? for fuck? gay sex? orgy masturbation? dont blame me for being crude here dude. loook at yourself. youre the ultimate person with 'BLOOD STAINS' then pushing all the blame on me by scolding me on msn, 'wah knn ccb, why your blog got this aussie guy..blah blah..nvm lah shinyi, youre dishonest' hahah' DUDE, look whose talking. talk to my hand lah. you guilty your prob, dont change arrow and make me sound like the killer lah fucker.
On 27 Dec ard 2am after your liverpool match. you said you were talking to your parent. utter bullshit lah hor. you say your parents back in SG le. TALK cock. got meh? haha. i dont know what uve done on those nights lah. like what ive mention as above. i dont care how many pussies youve licked, how many dicks you've sucked. just make sure i dont catch you, coz i will make your life even more difficult. in any case i might sound like a sucker or lunatic, im sorry, you made me into it. and dont come telling me that you wont do things to hurt this r/s like knowing other girls or whatsoever, coz its not the fucking link, i wont even get mad if you really know other girl lah. in fact it will just be a '解脱' for me. knowing that A GUY like you, are not worth any shit of my attention. i'll jjuust kick you off my fuckin life. not as if i cant find guys out there. the only thing that will get me on my nerves is that you are not repentent and keep lying without an twitch on your eyelid. but luckily, im smart. i know what youre fucking up toooooooooooo.
SERVE YOU RIGHT FOR LOSING YOUR WALLET

And i always believe what comes ard, goes ard.

__ MotherFucker

I just realised u're from Aussie.
no wonder you loook different from the rest.
haha.
that night was crazy shit, seriously.
well, thanks to you.
and i know you kinda regretted what you've done.
pretty disappointing:(
perhaps, just take time.
till then, Hah.

oh, yeah!
im so gonna apply some citibank credit card!
so much privileges!
Awesome stuffs lah.
and I AM TURNING 18 in LESS THAN 2 DAYS
OH GOSH!
i wonder how you gonna plan it.
Well,
pray hard eh.
SCHOOOL TMRW @ 11am!tata

ps: iloveyourtouches.

i felt the pain in the tears.

Last night, had dinner with my awesome friends plus you.
thanks for giving me such an unforgetable early birthday 'surprise'.
thanks people for being there with me whenever i neeed you guys.
you guys never fail to bring laugher and joy to my life.
sometimes little things in life that i may have over looked,
from now, i wanna cherish every friends, relationships i have in life.

Finally turning 18..
getting older as years go by,
friends stood by me whenever i fall, and picked me up, gave me the strength to continue moving on in life.
heart to heart talks with you ppl made me understand deepest meaning in life,
genuine love, and care.
i hope in my coming years, ive learnt what i went through, and never look back..

For you,
deepest thanks from me.
though sometimes your harsh and blunt words pierce through my heart so badly,
i still hope one day you will treat me and love me the way like you do in the past.
but i know one day even though our love for each other dies,
atleast i know i've tried so hard to salvage everything and live with no more regrets in this r/s.
once i rmb you asking me this qn,
'why did our love went wrong'
i thought throughh so much,
and finally know why.
as days being tgt with you gets longer, we both expect more from each other.
we expect more from what we want from each other in the beginning.
we expect each other to understand each other by keeping quiet.
i really dont know what shld i do now and im really lost.
to be honest, i know you dont love me anymore.
its that you dont want to see me being with other man, thats why you're holding on to me.
& when i really can see it in your eyes that your heart cant have me anymore,
i'll leave.

Day 2,3,4 without you

blog is the only friend of mine now.
i blog out how i really feel..
because i know when i share it with ppl, comments, and opinions will be coming out from them..
i dont want it..
i dont wanna live with regrets..
thats what ive learnt in my 18 years of living..
18 years..
my birthday is coming sooon in 2 weeks time..
i dont intend to celebrate anymore..
i dont wanna have fun on that day..
because it reminds me of your promises u made to me..
your surprise..your gifts..your existance will all be gone..
you hurt me so much.

Day 1 without you.

so empty, so lonely.
im trying to survive.
i really hope time heals..
its gonna take a long time..
shld be get back my life?

friends to lovers to enemies.

its over.
finally.
1 yr 5 mths. going to 1 and a half year..
i thg i could celebrate my 18th birthday with my loved one. which is you..
seems like this dream cant come true..
i dont need your present or well wishes.
its pointless, coz i lost someone so impt in my life.
i dont wanna cry.
i wanna stand back on my feet.
i need a shoulder.
today, i jjust realised, how much u love me all these while...
im sooo upset...really upset..
friends called me..asked me out tmrw.
all my drinking clubbing friends are back..
but im just out of love...
i really am..
who can be the one to rekindle my love?

i know u werent hm at all.
i knew u were driving ur friend back from lan shop.
and u was using lan's shop messenger to talk to me.
it is so obvious
the font of your text is black , whereas u normally use blue.
and when u afk, ur own msn will change to 'away'.
instead in lan shop it is 'busy'.
u said ur mom sscolded u due to warning letter. its bullshit.
its because u havent even go hm when its 2am.
11 plus havent 12am, u will rush me and say..
'EHHHH, go hm alr okay, my mom will kill me if i dont go hm now'
then there u go 2am go back ah.
wtf is this?
friends more privilege?
i rather be ur friend lah.
no r/s ties, no need to report to u whats my life up to either.
just know something.
nothing can be hidden forever

I cant seem to continue loving him anymore.
too tiring.
to be honest, in this relationship its infatuation. not love.
possessive, pain, disrespect.
its not worth being with you anymore.
ive wasted time, effort, love and everything i can give.
i give u my all and all. yet you said im irritating, paranoid and everything.
my heart is numb.
many times i cabbed over your area.
just a request from me to just look out of your window.
but u inisisted no.
i cried and cried, but you dont know.
because u will think all i know is to cry.
i shall stop having infatuations over you.
i shall stop all my foolish act.
i dont know if one day youll regret all youve done, all youve said.
but u know what?
when that day comes, i'll be over you

I fell in love with that person.
thats embarrassing.
so embarrassing that that's the type of person i fell in love with.
the reality behind those pictures was clearly very different.
'When i realise that my selfish decision for love could result it into some young girl getting killed. i couldnt be responsible for telling them go back. I just didnt realise how much of an impact had on these girls life. Dont react out of love. F love, because love is so pain.'

stupid thing making me dont feel like blogging.
well.
things changes damn fucking fast.
and i dont know how to fucking react to all these good/not good changes.
i still prefer the past of course.
i reallly wish i never grew up.
actaully love being 17 forever.
school is bullshit
boyfriend is crappy.
everyone seeems to be lifeless. ahh
blog tmrw(:

nvr really blogged my life since i broke up with algin.
wondering how are you?
hmm. life isnt getting better since secondary school.
i forgot blogging was used to be part of my life.
i blog almost everyday. blog is one way i stress out my everything.
i kept all what im thinking im feeling in me.
it feels so heavy.
looking back at archives, at my past.
then, wasnt so perfect either. quarrels, jealousy paranoidness kicks in.
now, its still fucking same. just lil worser.
body getting weaker as each day passes.
will anyone hear me out?
i feel so trapped.
all i need is that key to let me out.

Screw my life,

fuck my life,

fuck my ass man.

and thanks dannie for saying i might have urinary stones-_-.

REALLY thanks.

im reallly sick now.

yet, im doing so much shit.

what the fuck is life worth for.

think abt it

why do you have to disappoint me?
why do you have to know more girls?
am i not enough for you?
i mean i did alot for you, only you.
i even got into an accident, why dont you see?
i dont do those stuffs why are you doing this to meeee?
my heart is like torn, literally broken and squashed.
can i even live further on?
I'M FUCKING HURTTTTTTTTTT.

Will be away from SG till sat!
(:

Alrigght, this will be a random shiyte(:
When for SG IDOLS(:
was having exam in the morning ard 8.30, didnt really sleept well the night before, so was fucking hell shag. almost puked, but didnt hehe.
Rushed down to The Cathy, and it was packed like sardines.

WTFFFFF, but of course, there were a handful of potential singers out there YO!
looking at the Damn queue under the scorching hot terrible blazing sun, i decided to join NEXT SAT's aud. i hope its gonna be okay.

Saw shafiq, yan nan and people there HAHA.
well, GOOD LUCK! (:

Happiness, life satisfaction, fulfillment and meaning in life.

hate people who bullshit and talk cock.
as if nothing ever happen when actually you are doing it secretly behind ppl's back.
THIS IS SO FUCK-EDD UP AND SI BEI ANNOYING.
come on lah, dare to do it, admit. Not as if i dont do it -_-


& i dont think you know im talking abt you.cause all u know is to deny and give excuses.

Aiya dont talk abt it alr man, spoill my damn mood.
anw, tmrw's SG idol alr.
soooo tired. its like 5.21am noww.
&i still have got no idea what im gonnna singgggg.
BOO:(
dont really have much confidence thou.
maybe just give it a shot, never cross my mind i'll get into top..uhmm 20 or even first round? LOL
wish me luckkkkssssssssss!
chaos.

Feeeling damn FEVERISH now.
I hate school.
i dont wanna go schooool tmrw, so early:(
9am leh, now going to 3am. 6 hours definitely not enough.
soooo sick of life.

Throw me some freedom, Please!

some uncle saw me doing some stuff illegally.
& flashes his touch light at me doing some stuffs.
what the Fuck, Chao idiot.
Still scold vulgalriteis. Stupid lah UNCLE, NEVER SEEEE BEFORE ISIT.

I'm a girl who can devote fully into a relationship as well as to destroy a relatioship without qualms.
Sad to say, it hurts. It really do.
Be it in the past or now, i think i didnt change much towards relationship.
In a r/s,
i go crazy when girls try to get close to my parnter.
i go insane, berserk.
i go to the extend to dig out as much info as possible just to know that she's no threat to our r/s.
i curse and kill whoever she is.
i let jealousy control me, i couldnt even recognise who am i.
inferiority or whatever makes me end up breaking this r/s.
i hate myself.
slowly, lack of trust between parnters and
ta da The End.

times and times again i asked myself why is it like this?
and still have no answer.




im tiredd.
its 4.15am
where are you

Night out partyying((:
6 june is nearrinnng...

Makeover soon!!

Singapore Idol™ Auditions

When: Saturday, 6th June 09

Where: The Cathay (2 Handy Road - opposite Dhoby Ghaut MRT)

What Time: 8a.m. (Be early so that you get to the auditions faster!)
* Registration for the audition is on a FIRST COME FIRST SERVE basis. Once contestants have registered, they will be auditioned.

HOWEVER, if the turnout is overwhelming, contestants will be asked to return on another day for Auditions.For more information, you can also refer to the points below and the

F.A.Q.

You must be in line by 8a.m. at the Audition Venue. Registration for the Auditions closes at 6p.m.

You must register online, then print out the online application form and bring the signed application form (photo included) with you on the day of Registration -- 6 June to the

Registration Venue. You must also bring your letter of Confirmation with your reference number on it.

You MUST bring along a piece of ID that includes a Recent photo. The information provided in the Application Form should correspond with the information provided in the ID. For Singapore citizens please bring along your NRIC. For non-Singapore citizens (including Singapore PR), please bring along your passport.

Auditions are NOT by appointment, you must come by 8a.m and join the Official Queue.

Auditions will be first-come, first-seen. It is up to you to decide when to arrive at the auditions.

Please anticipate long queues.

Please remember that the audition process may take up to several hours, so please plan accordingly. Do ensure that you have a hearty breakfast before queuing at the venue, and come prepared for an audition process lasting several hours.

If you are under 21 years of age as of the date of registration, please ensure that you bring along a letter of approval from a parent or guardian with their signatures. You are allowed to bring a parent or guardian with you, but they will only be allowed into the Reception & Registration Areas, depending on the day's turnout.

For those over 21, guests will be permitted based on the day's turnout. No guests - family or friends-are allowed into the audition room with you.

PLEASE COME DRESSED TO IMPRESS, but remember NOT to wear clothes with visible logos, trademarks or offensive language.

Be prepared to sing two songs of your choice a cappella (without music), one of which must be in English. You will be required to sing a verse and a chorus, but it is good to know the entire song.

You must provide the titles of the songs, and the original artistes (singers) to the person judging your performance.

I AM JOINING!

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHHA

I WANNNNA GET A NEW LIFE.
I DONT WANNA GET INVOLVE IN ANYTHING ELSES.
I WANNNA BE SINNNGGGLLLE

I'm never happy when im with you

Sitting there wondering why am i there to worry for you, to keep pondering where are you? thinking that you might actually forget me somehow. i feel such a fool.

i used to believe in everything, but nah, there will be a change of heart. i really had enough of this. locking up myself just to devote my every time and minute and soul to that person, but in the end i get practically nothing, Nothing.

writing this post makes me feel more relieved or whatever it is. to those people who are reading, no matter what thoughts you have after reading this, i dont care, because you are not me. You WONT understand.

Last time i took all for granted now ive lost everything.

Do you even know what i am going through?

& thanks sam, for everything today.

Found this somewhere, and its soo soooo ....
just read on..


Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately, love truly

laugh constantly


And never stop smiling no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be but as long as we are here,

we should smile and be

grateful for the gift of LIFE !

I guess i need to blog often.
now, life is different i cant rely.
and to prove to you,
i dont need love and pampers from any of you.
& i think you shld just forget me.


i dont wanna talk abt it anymore.
life sucks
results also sucks.
but i dont care
tonight gonna head boat quay and town.
monday night doesnt mean monday blues.
byeees

It's time for me to organise my life ( i know it isnt early lol).
there is plently of things for me to do.
i've wasted most of my days, aimlessly doing nothing except slacking as days goes.
now, i just wanna improve my life for the better.

-hit the gym real soon (tho i've said it millions of times)
-get a perfect tan
-get my ideal body Angelina.J
-go for braces adjustment sooon & get it out of me asap!
-get a fucking jobbb.
-get my IpodTouch.
-sell my clothes somewhere
-do housechores.
-go for a short trip. (man, i rreally need it)
-do reflecctions
-take note of myy health and diet. i really feel weaker n weaker nowadays
-swimm!
-get piercings sooon too
-BUY my baby bolster new clothes! coz my mom says if i dont buy, she's gonna throw! its the only thing on earth that i hug in bed with to make me fall asleep.
-learn how to coook more complicated dish.
-join back Oschoool. havent been dancing for ages
-learn how to be independent. impt

How can i ever make an impact to your life?
doing things behind my back wont just allow you to quit it, its just lying.
thosands, millions and zillions of sorry-s and apologises doesnt make any difference with you just continuing doing things i detest.
i mean i do try to put in my greatest effort to help you.
giving yourself excuses to quit isnt the way.
i believe you can, but you dont show me that.
how can i ever see it through in you?
how am i suppose to trust
in your eyes, im impact-less.
do you even fuckin know i feel so fucking useless.
do you wanna me to make things ugly before you even quit?
please, please, please.
i'm telling you now.
what u've done, you owe me,
in fact, you harm yourself.
from now on, im washing my hands off you
eitther you;re dead or alive, thats none of my business
GOODBYE

I'm sitting on the top of the building, not knowing what consequences i will have once i fall.
i cant see what's ahead of me, what's beneath me.
is it gonna be my last goodbye?

tooo stressed up with what i have now.
even you doubted my love.
i just cant find the right words to forgive myself.
maybe thats what only love can do.

Everyone(someppl) are liars,
hypocrites and
cheaters.
fuck off man! _I_

I took for granted all the time,that i thought will last somehow
I hear the laughter, i taste the tears
But i can't get near you now,
Can't you see it, you've get me going crazy.

Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you.
You still love me dont you?

End of exams.
felt so exhausted out of a sudden.
havent been surfing net for ages.
saw millions of things up the internet.
yea, people do change.
well, for my holidays, i have no plans.
i'm just a sucker.
i have no aim in life, i dont even know how come i came into this shit course.

& recently hell lot crap happened to me.
be it in school or outside.
stirreedd up problems outside.
life now for me sucks.
sleep at 6am or 7.
wake up at 12am the following day
seriously, i dont bother abt doing any adjustment to my life.
just too tired and im not myself anymore.
seen ppl takes ciggs, drugs and boooze to make themselves happier, does it even help?
i have no idea.
& i finally know who will be there when in need.
i know who treats me as a friend and who just plainly using me.
aiya, anyway, im a gone case person lah fuck.
dont know wth am i stttilll blogging for.
for fuck, ppl just spam and just ignore.
seriously, just fuck urself.
and screwe mmyyyyyy lifeeeeeeee.

and mommy pls let me drop out school and study overboard,
coz ive did something really wrong.
im sorry ive disappointed you.
i dont know wth the sch wants to deal with me now.
all i am doing now, is just waiting for the verdict.

I regretted not joining Campus Superstar during my secondary school days :(

I dont mind you not caring about me.
I dont mind not having any friends.
I dont mind not having any attention.
I dont mind dying right now.

Went Gladys house for Cny!

Fun fun fun.

& yea, im back home early(:

My life is Screwed.
Sincere apology to you, especially you.

I'm tired of my life, everything.
2009 seems like another boring year.
when will i get things right once more?
here i am trying so hard,
nothing succeeds.
when will i change for the better?
sleepless late nights,
missing lectures, tutorials,
quarrels,
im just so sick of it.
wanna run away,
wanna be alone

So left out,
no one bothers.

Empty down in my heart.
where had every one went?
no more laughters, warmth.
ive got nothing to count on, nothing to rely on.
im giving up hope.

我好想紧紧抱着你
没有你的日子很难过。

Sudden feelings of random thoughts gush right through my head,
feeling desperately inferior i am
no one's there to help me overcome this.
i thought im always better than what they are.
however i dont feel it so today.
realising how dumb, naive and foolish i am,
im really tired.

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my god.

pic ages ago.

so random post here

Chinese new year!
getting boring as years passes.
some of my cousin will be not in SG.
how can this be?
my god.
new year leh.
life just sucks.
dont really have new year mood now.
annual majongs, dai dee, pineapple tarts gathering seems to be diminshing.
ah fuck.

grandma passed away not long ago.
family dont really have much mood to enjoy this festival, jooyful season.
i mean, its really a very sad thing.
ah ma will usually cook us delicious and ancient food.
it may seem awkward but it taste damn good.
aunties and uncles will gather and 'LOU YU SHENG',
damn funny lor. ahah
young kids and babies will tend to use the chopsticks and then climb onto the table and LOU. they are suppose to make it go higher and higher, instead those CUTE BABY COUSINS all throw the chopsticks to the back haha.
making it a mess haha.
and they only eat the CRISP!
they dont eat the rainbow coloured 'noodles' LOL!

i really miss those times when ah ma is around.
she;s like the man of the family.
she;s strong, smart and adorable!
i just love her.
now i cant celebrate new year with her,
i'll keep her in my heart.
i wonder how this coming new year will be.

cherish your family.
i know i have to learn alot on this.
i'm learning, i am.
to those cousins, whom ive quarrelled with,
i'm sorry.
We're blood-related after all, lets forgive and forget.
It takes fate and destiny for us to be cousins.
Love you

Why didnt you speak when u call me?

i have to just act as though we're stranger.

I'm in school now man.

as u can see im like rather slacking

ppl are studying hard man, lol

that explains why my result Kns.

haha.

went for S&W just now,

hiphop was fun! fun! fun!

had girls hiphop,

wooo

but i still think needa improve on my dancin posture.

look like shit on stage. :(

blog later!

shld be kboxin or gymin later(:

I've got your name tattooed on my chest.
Sobriety? Sanity?
I dont know.

Right!
Received my third Final Warning letter.
GrEaT work lah shinyi.
look properly and u'll realise i skipped S&W once a month!
wahha.
uhm, very-not-so-often i think? lol
anyways, im gonna do my make-up session ASAP cause Year one is ending!
woooooooo.
*shakes shakes shakes*

shake shake my ass ass

show show my thong thong

do do my thing thing

aint nothing wrong aint nothing wrong(:

Well, firstly
i would like to congratulate those people who scored well for their O level(:
CHEERS!
thinking back,
my results are kindly lousy too
lol, fancy me making big fuss of it.
haha.
well, its been a year since O's.
things changed, time files.

In poly, began to relax to max.
skipped lectures and tutorials.
buying MCs, not doing tutorial work.
freedom. freedom.
guess i was wrong in the past.
if i knew im not that disciplined,
i'll study in JC.
2 years and im done.
moving on to degree.
how nice. hhaha
but its too late, on my way to year 2 babyy!
woot.
really regretted going business studies too.
modules are dumb fuck boring.
but great and awesome pals there!
hehe
got to go guys.
have to update myself with work
:(

random pic of deb xin san yee & me in our younger days haha.

Beneath the I-Don't-Know look of yours,
hidden stacks and stacks of unrealved assumptions/.
YUCK!

it's 8:36 in the morning.
the world starts spinning,
but my heart drop dead.
No more beats,
energy.
only to find out myself being weaker and weaker each day.
perhaps i have a serious illness.
I'm dying.

:(
have you ever been in the most fragile status where every single things in life just doesnt go your way?
Sadly, i am in such shit right now.
thoughts of taking my life away is bombarding me.
i mean, i am really tired of life.
it seems like no matter how hard i try, how tough it gets, how much longer i hold, i dont get the perfect results in the end.
maybe its because of my perfectionist mindset again
or perhaps just i wanna beat others in everything coz, im just really much better than them and dont deserve to be such state.
yea, blame me for wasting my youth away partying, drinking, smoking, singing- just entertainment stuffs lah.
bblame me for not doing what i ought to do.
or even blame me for doing so many sins, & this is finally what i reaped.
im in my most desperate mood now.
i dont wanna talk it out, i dont wanna share it, i dont wanna anyone to know how im feeling.
friends come and go.
but most of them prove to me that, true and real tested friendship seldom exist.
of course there are good friends i have.
realy, thankyou.
algin, i dont blame you detesting me for life.
maybe this is what i owe you in my previous life, thus i have to live up to this.
just hope love in the past doesnt get over and let us just remain like this.
to people who think im a flirt or bitch.
just be it, because i am with jeff now.
he is a good guy.
in fact both algin and jeff are awesome guys,
i let them down,
i dont know how to cherish them.
its just me being stupid.
things have to move on.
and jeff is in my life now, so no matter how you guys try to inflict pain into me, it doesnt work.
i really hope everything would be fine.
as for myself,
i have got nothing to say
maybe im going to quit school.
maybe im dying,
i really dont know... ...

ARG
kena cough, flu, blocked nose and now fever.
havent been school till today.
and my results sucks.
got D+ for itb.
urgh.
wtf, fuckin damn lousy recently.
and im gaining pounds and pounds of weight
fuck ala.

and ppl who spam my board.
really,
you wanna spam just spam bah.
too tired to do a shit to it.
you spam your prob.
and since its your prob i shant talk anymore.
Zzz.
as a psychologist or whatever u spell,
ppl spam because they are just simply jealous of me or just wanna find excitment thrg this.
erm, i think its some serious case.
sigh for you.
i think no medi can cure you.
chaos man.
dumbshit.