I always remember what someone told me, whenever you receive a call from your exes it means they are still thinking of you.
how true.
sometimes when things just slipps away,
it's forever gone.
it's always true that good things do come to an end no matter what.
in the end, no one understands me.
no one.
cant explain myself at all.
cant explain what i need.
i cant even look at myself at this state.
seems that it's all too late to do a change.
this is where love went wrong

For this magical evening

i felt the love connection between us.

My eyes caught yours.

your gentle smile melted me.

at this very moment,

i knew i was loved by you.

you gave me everything in this world.

for what you put me through,

i will always remember it and kept it deep down in my heart.

with all those loves,

haunting me everywhere,

i embraced it tightly.

you capture the ghost of me.

you couldnt let me go,

trying to save what's left-

of my heart and soul.

Despite all the setbacks we've been thrg,

when i feel so unsure,

you took my hand and lead me back to your heart

as my tears dries away,

something in your eyes

gave me the will to be strong.

you put my head on your shoulder

and put your lips next to mine.

baby, you whispered into me

those words i want to hear,

tell me that you love me too.

when the night;s falling,

we sat the cable car,

romancing the love we share.

it was you that made this day a very special one.

Tonight,

my love blossomed tenderly.

i built my world around you.

to this gorgeous place we went,

you made me feel loved once more.

on that dining table,

neatly laid with the amble magnificent atmosphere.

raising my glass ,

in the evening glow.

everything was perfect...

Happy Anniversary!

Love like you've never been hurt before
dare to love
even if you lose him, you won't regret

Fuck the pain away

I'm really lost for words.
realised blogging isnt impt to me anymore.
its not where i can share my feelings with.
i dont know what else i could add on.
i guess i aint strong afterall.
it's hurting me inside.
jeff, i really thank you for all your gifts, surprises, words, huggs and kisses/
the time you spent with me were umlimited.
you spent sleepless nights under my block, knowing im safe at home.
you didnt bother abt the discomfort-ness you might have sleeping at the playground.
your sacrifies were tooo much to be mention.
i rmbed, when i was upset with my results,
you cheered me up with a surprise.
you went all the way to imm jsut to get me the drama series i always wanted to watch.
you gave up ur sleeping time just to do all this for me.
you even quarrelled with your parents just for me.
you rejected playin soccer with ur pals.
i can see how precious, how beloved i am to you.
but here i am, losing faith in us.
im selfish,
self-centered,
demanding,
unreasonable,
stubborn.
i didnt see how much effort you put into us.
you tried using millions of ways to make me feel better to make me feel extraordinary , great, yet, im still indifferent.
im sorry.
i wonder if one day you would stop loving me and find another better person who can represent me and all of me.
if that day ever arrive, what am i suppose to do?
how am i suppose to live without you?
noone will be there to stand by me.
will your love for me slip of gradually?
our future seems so blurry so blurry.
because now, i dont even know if i have the courage to love someone.
at times, i controlled my tears.
trying to show im fine.
trying to decive myself that everything will be fine soon.
i told myself to be resilient.
i wanna forgget all the miseries i have , the unwanted memories.
but whenever you;re not there with me, my thoughts run wild.
i dont knwo if i shld be happy or upset.

i know i shldnt be affected by them.
i know i shldnt think much.
i know i have to move on, and have no regrets,
because you'll be there u fill up my empty heart.

Do you love me?
Does everlasting love exist?

Life isnt getting any better.
School stuff is giving me bad headache.
when school starts, im not gonna be in the same as my current fellow classmates.
i really dreaded this.
i dont wanna leave my comfort zone.
i dont wanna meet new people.
i wanna stay discreet.
good friends are really hard to come by.
i just want to stick with them forever.
why does good things all come to the end.

im feeling very empty inside me now.
no one knows exactly how i feel except myself
perhaps this song could describe how im feeling.
the following are the lyrics:

刘力扬 - 眼泪笑了

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CA1ZDsqauN4

比想象中更痛 你真的没回头 我命令眼泪不许失控


回忆不跟你走 都挤在我心中 我就有责任让它值得被珍重

谢谢你曾让我难过 谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着 找回光和热

面对你的时候 我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折 是美的

心碎成了沙漠 就快开凿绿洲 我没有时间不知所措

你温柔的双手 本就不属于我 又何必在乎它以后属于谁呢

谢谢你曾让我难过 谢谢我没有想太多

当爱情左盼右顾的时候

我眼泪都笑了 谁还想哭呢

再勇敢的站着 找回光和热

面对你的时候 我不会舍不得

因为你已是过客 因为路有些曲折

你眼泪都笑了 谁还会哭呢 来不及完美的 就唱首骊歌

想起你的时候 我不是卑微的

反而我没有遗憾 因为我已爱过你 深深的

fucked-up results.

dammit shit ass.

allll Cs, Bs , Ds and ONE FUCKING F!
oh my god.
my results almost made me cried out.
ever since after Os, i guess i havent been really studying lah.thinking that poly rocks.
but actual fact, its tough in here man!
wooo.
im gonnna buck up for next sem alrdy.
cant see myself lagging back!
motivated, perservance and determination!
goood luck!! HEHE

Went JOHOR with baby recently. haha, its a very super random idea from me suggesting to go M'sia.

i guess we both are damn steady eh?

sooo met at 11am at clementi mrt.

then off to marilising(spelling sucks) station and board msia bus.

tada! off we go to MSIA!

buildings, traffic, lifestyle there is quite a diff from Sg here.

their dressing sense is also another major diff.

oh yeah! their cab fare is super cheap too!

unlike SG. damn EXpensive!

foood there is superb tooo!

it's like a meal u have in Cafe cartel in Sg, u can have it two times in the same standard

restaurant!

wooo, great bargain!

Fucking pissed off right now.

last night went to chill at Boat quay.

slept at 2.30am the night before, then woke up ard 4.30pm next afternoon.

gosh!

14 hrs of sleep.

goddamit.

baby phoned me and met him at outram.

its soon gonna be mid-autumn.

lights and lanterns are up in clarke quay.

families, kids were running and strolling ard enjoying the scenes.

zodiacs figures were up too!

oh yeah.

2009 for the zodiac of sheep kinda bad .

wealth, health, r/s also kns.

haha.

aftermmath headed liang court to get cheese pancake

but sold out!

damn!

its fucking delicious i can tell you!

must try!

soon, baby brought me to fashion bar, but didnt managed to went in coz, i didnt wore the right dress code.

TSK!

then headed boat quay to chill and sing.

only managed to sing a few chinese songs and DUET-ed with baby.

ehhe.

after a jug of beer. headed to bedok with him.

brought coke, then drank vanilla and lemon vodka.

hardcore drinking man

me and baby puked.

he was feeling damn terrible lah.

puked like 10 times?!

omg.

seriously, after so much,

drinking really brings us many negative effects.

its also harmful to liver.

sigh, but ppl still drink!

LOL, i feel like im bullshitting alrd!

anw! pictures!

Went out with liyuan .

shopped @ far east.

extended hair again. lol

i rmb the last time i extended my hair was like last year olevels.

haha & @ city plaza.

its 1.50 per stand. called braiding.

not long after liyuan told me that we've been cheated haha.

coz' other places only 1 per stand.

but baby say like no difference in my hair.

TSK.TSK.

i spend 30 leh!

Ate at new york new york
@ Ehub!
the cheese balls are great,
but not that cheese fondue,
not very satisfying tho.
baby and i love cheese fucking hell !

Janna's 17th Birthday @ Ichiban Sushi !

Had dim sum with baby few days back.
It was super filling.
Almost puke after that sumptious meal.

we ordered practically every dish on the menu.
some managerial old man asked if we could really finish all those.
baby ordered 5 LONG of 'CHAR SIEW PAO'.
cant blame us uh. we both just love it soooo much!!
so tasty and yummy lor!
in the end we decided to have 3 LONG of it instead.
1 LONG got 3 PAOS, but i ate only 2 or 3 PAOS,
he ate the remaining 6 PAOS!

omg, huge eater! I Love it ^^
i'll post up some pictures.

While waiting for food to come!

After eating dim sum buffet,

we went to catch STAR WARS that movie

pretty boring leh

i fell asleep =X

LOL

had an eventful day with baby.
i would wanna spend my days with him.

i hope things are going well for you(:

You never fail to make my smile.
I just hope we'll stay like this forever.