sometimes it just damn diff to please him la. i didnt even asked him out for the five days we said. i allowed him to stay him home, yet he did nothing at home, just slackng. wtf. atleast if i'm at home, i have the discipline to do work and now i know i've done all my homework. he said he wants me to find another bf. and this is like so BULLSHIT. how much he love he said to be last time, was all BULLSHIT. is it my retribution or wad.? my life is so screwed now la. my dad just got pissed with me, and i had a hard time pleasing him back. i just quarreled with my F sis. Now wad? Him? ARGG. Screw this. sometimes i do think i dun even belong here.

such hurting words can come out from his mouth, wads more man? Find another boyfriend? haha, that easy huh? have to forget everything of you, have to stop contacting u, have to eat my shit to pass each day. FCUK. FCUK FUCK. i have on last thing to add on. NOTHING LAST FOREVER. i guess we will soon lose each other.
BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway.
went out with yixin today. yixin and i are pretty close i can say. during the last SYF performance rehearsal we seldom talk. but still we are that close. i really love her alot. she understands me well and gives me encouragment, she will scold me whetehr i'm wrong. hah. this type of freinds are getting rare. so i told her i got my belly pierced, she was like OMG. lol. she brought alot of stuffs today. rich kid. and i patheically jsut brought a spongebob for him. i really love to give my boyfriend surprises. i hope he does appreciate. and i know he will.(=. eeven though im mad with him, i do know that i loved him, just that sometimes my love towards him made him feel suffocated. ppl say i loved him too much that i rely heaviily on him . i do ADMIT. seriosuly, i dont know why, i dun see that i rely on my EXs that much tho. maybe to Me, his special and different. if he chooses to leave me or wadevr at a crucial stage or at a point of time, i would break down instantaneously. No doubt alright. perhaps after a LONG period of time, i will eventually slowly forget about him, and just let go. all i wan him to feel is a sense of freedom and happiness, which i know he lacks now.
OKAY. SO BACK TO MY JOUNEY WITH YIXIN TODAY.
erm, yay. so we ate Long John. gossiped ALOT. haha. but didnt badmouthed. lol. we talked about our lifes, studies, our further. hmm..so typical thinking of us indeed. havent someone thought of more interesting life? haii. humans are just so boring, monotonous. why not be a ghost instead? haha. So after eating walked and strolled around, thats when we decided to go home. erm when to meet algin. so somethings happen, dun wish to blog out. then went to clementi to eat. then headed funland. as usual, played. and we both managed to reach the highest stage(should be) haha. but our character wasnt strong enough, at the end died. AWW. sad ending tho.

i'll upload pictures soon. but not today. kinda lazy. BYE.
P.S: you are not forgetten.!